+True luV+

2009-11-16T20:06:00.000-08:00

I SWEAR THAT I WUN CHECK ANS WITH ANYONE FROM NOW ON.
its only making my life miserable.

2009-11-05T06:32:00.000-08:00

i regretted not spending sufficient time on gp in the past..
actually,i predicted that this day will come at this point in time.

but,im really hoping for a miracle.
i know hardcore studying for gp for these few weeks is not gonna make up for the time tat i have lost in the past.
but,im really really hoping for a miracle.

sigh.as the day draws nearer..
people tend to regret their actions earlier on.
i bet everyone does?
as much as i dun wan to face it.

4 more days.
JIAYOUS everyone!

2009-10-20T06:56:00.001-07:00

can i be granted a chance to have a better day tmr?

i seriously need it.

let nature takes its course and everything will (i hope its not a mere assumption) proceed smoothly.
tats one thing that i learnt today (:

明天会更好，不是吗?

2009-10-15T23:31:00.000-07:00

stop finding people who face the same diffculty as you and derive comfort and consolation from it.
instead,do something to your weakness.
make the relevant changes and not resign to the fate tat its jus your genetic make-up that's behind all these.
dream to change the ideals and impossible will be nothing.

but it's so hard, isn't it?
especially with the fact that there's a time constraint...
what's the point of motivating others when i can't even motivate myself to press on.

2009-09-29T07:21:00.000-07:00

SELF NOTE

sherli has to really buck up this time round and not lose steam at this point in time as she knows she really cant afford to.
sherli has to accept the cruel fact that studying alot does not necessarily equate to good grades.
casting high hopes, and falling so hard each time.
crying over split milk..thinking that,oh acty im not tat bad,jus tat i cant think at that point in time.
TOO BAD for you if tat really happens.stop blaming all other thgs but yourself.
you landed yourself in such a state and you have to something abt it.
STOP crying and pull up your courage,you fool.

don't ever land up in a state of regret.
by that time,its too late.....

jiayous sherli.
5more weeks to the real thing;

hold on,stay strong

2009-09-21T20:15:00.000-07:00

sometimes,
i really hope you can spare a fking thot for my feelings before you react/speak.

YOU FKING DUN UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL.

2009-08-10T04:27:00.000-07:00

it's either technology or you who's failing me.
but the latter seems more like it..
which happened to intensify the emptiness in me.

or rather,im failing myself..?

2009-07-19T01:08:00.000-07:00

why am i crying more often than usual...
it feels like evrything's crashing onto me such that im growing weaker each day.

2009-05-30T08:03:00.000-07:00

its been a loooooooooooong while.
and yah,im here to blog again.not sure how this post will turn out like..but i shall just rattle on.
will be sitting for gp paper on mon.
and here i am,doing last minute studying yet again.
though ive decided to dedicate my weekend to gp..revising brainstorming strategies and reading essay outlines..im very much aware that it's not going to be of much help.
but at least,it can kill some teeny weeny bit of guilt in me.
how many times ive promised to give gp the deserved respect,to spare some time catching up with the news..yada yada.
empty promises you see.or rather,san fen zhong re du.
devasting gp results makes me motivated for quite some time.
quite some time..and that's it.my focus goes somewhere else..physics,chem,econs,maths.
it's just some kind of a wrong mentality which ive always wanted to change but my efforts always turn out to be futile..
but on second thought,was there even an effort made?-.-
im thoroughly ashamed of myself.

for some reasons..perhaps due to not blogging for quite some time,ive lost the ability to express my thoughts.
and im staring at the screen at this moment..thinking of what i should say.lol-.-
sounds kinda ridiculous.
but what's my purpose of blogging in the first place?
trying to practise my writing (typing) skills or.....rant about the troubles in my head.

after reading soooo manyy essays..im kinda brainwashed in a sense.
the troubles,problems,confusions and sorrow that im experiencing are just so insignificant to be mentioned.
but still..there's this issue that's been stuck in my head for quite some time.

are we getting more distant recently?
sounds cliched..but is that how a relationship is supposed to turn out with time?
from a vibrant red..and gradually changing to a pale yellow..and eventually turning colourless.
i guess you never once thought about it.but that's exactly how i feel.
from that very intense care and concern for each other at the start..we gradually got used to each other.
and perhaps now,taking each other for granted.
conflicts happening more frequently that it jus wears me out.
encouragements getting a little redundant and maybe not appreciated.
ongoing misunderstandings which turns this relationship really sour.
are we just so used to seeing each other everyday that our relationship has become so superficial..
sometimes i really wonder,how much do we understand each other?
why are all these happening at this point of time?
time and again,ive tried convincing myself that all these are part and parcel of a relationship,and are neccessary for a stronger bond to be forged between us.
but i guess im just really tired...
tired of this change.
tired of pointing out all the flaws in you.
tired of adapting and changing myself to be less unreasonable.
tired of trying not be tired out by this relationship.
tired of myself..
i seriously hope that there could be a turning point from all these.
i want to have faith in you,in this relationship.
and i really hope you can give some thought to this.
pale yellow ain't gonna stay for long.
i hope it'll turn back to a vibrant red just like before.

2009-03-20T02:10:00.000-07:00

i realised,

it doesn't make any difference in any way.

how much work put in and blah..
how much i came to know that humans are selfish in nature.
and that the distance between doesn't seem that significant anymore.

maybe one shouldn't be dragged along by emotions but rational thinking.
thinking of what's only desirable for you and yourself.

perhaps ive learnt.

2009-03-09T08:18:00.000-07:00

GAN SHER LI

YOU SUCK.

2009-01-30T19:39:00.000-08:00

i must voice out something which has been supressed deep within for a looooooooooooongg time...

JC LIFE IS NO DOUBT, THE WORST PERIOD OF MY LIFE.

at least for now.

jc2 was much worse that what it has been during jc1.
more work,higher expectations from everyone,lectures going at a speed of light,tests going on like nobody's business,fatigue that im experiencing everyday,dragging my feet home after school,dreading the start of a new day,worrying much more about my grades (will i fail gp again?),cca tats driving me nuts sometimes (esp with the kind of teachers we have)..and needless to say,the list will go on.
not shorter but definitely LONGERR.
thousand times longer.

well,maybe it's the wrong decision that ive made to enter mj.
to opt for 4h2 and the workload's just..humongous.
but there's no point regretting?
i cant turn back time. and even if i had the chance to,i think i'll choose the current jc,4h2 route.
so wat for complain? why am i grumbling so much?
grrrrrrrrrr.this is such a big big big irony.
whatever

im just totally not enjoying this tiring process at all..
maybe it'll pay off when the results are out next year.
and i really wonder,how will i be feeling then?
relieved?happy?or jus..the 'oh so it's over' feeling.
LOL i cant imagine.

oh well,why am i sounding so sarcastic-.-

hmm though 08s103 is definitely much more bonded than 4h.
but i still miss mandice,pris,qin,siewting,sheryl..all the piggies dearly.
at least they were the ones who kept me going.
they were the ones who made me look forward to a new day.
i'll never forget the kind of encouragement tat they have provided me with.
passing notes over to stop my tears.
but you guys never knew that tears continued flowing even more as im really touched and blessed to have such a great bunch of friends by my side..
this real friendship, i swear that i'll cherish it till the end of my life.

as for now,i dread going to school each day
cos the feeling's just so different now.
there's no motivation,nothing that im looking foward in school.

there's only me convincing myself that,
today will be a better day..i hope.

从没想过事情会这样发生
原本陌生的人闯进了人生
从此生命中多出你们也多出无限可能
一起作伴一起游玩一起分享青春的宝藏
一起前进一起转弯一起想下一个梦想

感谢你们愿意陪伴我不然我将会多么寂寞
不然如何能把泪水变成回忆的彩虹
♥

2008-12-30T23:42:00.000-08:00

lol it's amazing when i look back on my previous posts.
seems to be bringing back lots of memories which are long forgotten and also some which happened to be etched in my mind till now.
strange feeling.strange posts that seem so strange and distant.
as though im reading about someone's life?
and im ashamed to say that i gave up reading my 2006's reflection.
full of crap and too emo-.- HAH.

as for 2007,im just too busy worrying about the olvl results and so on.
spent the first half of this yr with much hatred,regrets,guilt and fear.
dramtic year,i must say.
lots of things happened,unexpected ones.
there's just too much to say..and i can't simply put them into words.
overwhlemed with the will to excel,to do better than others..which i know that it isnt doing me any good.
i din change in anyway i guess,in terms of academics.
always aiming for the best and giving myself unnecessary stress.
how many times ive told myself to change
how many times ive tried to convince myself that results aint the only thing that determines evrythg in my life
but,sad to say,results had full control of my life.and i predict,it's gonna be in future too.
i hate it when im green with envy whenever someone does better than me.

dealing with relationships..ive changed.in fact,to an extent that sometimes,i had to take a good look at myself asking.what have i become?
immuned?irritated?or cant be bothered?or maybe dun wish to bother so as to prevent myself from dwelling too much into it?
i don't know.i can't tell if things are getting better or worse.
we're not as one anymore.in fact,it seems as though we're strangers on the table during tat fateful night when we had dinner.
i cant tell if its better this way or..i'd rather return to the past when evrythg's complete but again,not exactly complete.
either one,there's always something missing.
im again,ashamed and guilty to say..i think i'm happier this way.
i wish you won't take a step further and screw up his entire life.
that's what i truly wish for.please.
i don't have the guts to plead you as im clearly aware that tears will surely fall.
i just hope that you're able to listen to my thoughts and figure out what i'm longing for.
not to be as one..but at least,appearing to be as one.

well..im getting so emo again.
i'm hoping 2009 will be a fruitful year ahead cos i figured 2008 isnt one.lol.
hope the A's will be okay.not like the O's.[A's sounds better so maybe i'll do better?(:]
i swear i'll place studies as my first priority and not disappoint the people around me.
i won't continue ignoring my mum's advices and let her down.
2009 will be great with my new house and hopefully,a new life(:

i'll never forget the kind of support you've given me throught this year.
ups and downs we've been through.
we'll pull through this tough year together.
make it a memorable one ya?
hee(:

2008-06-03T19:46:00.000-07:00

(:
lols im jus blogsurfing and hmm it makes me wanna revive the blog somehow..
but yah.it'll be a short one i guess.
exams are just around the corner.the days are drawing near.
but yah..the drive to study doesnt seem to be here yet.
maybe i haven been taking exams for monthsssss.i cant rmb how to study! ):
easily distracted by msn conversations,tv programmes and out there shopping..
how i wish,mye's before the june hols.lols
chi xin wang xiang hur.jus cant escape from reality.
jus hope things will turn out okay eventually and i'll be able to take the blow somehow.
jc exams are jus rushiiiiiiiiiiinnnngggg thru without proper thinking.there jus isnt enuf time!
well..just wanna say good luck to you ppl out there for the coming mye(:
have faith ppl!

2008-02-23T04:02:00.000-08:00

ehh i have no intentions of reviving this blog.
in fact,no intentions to let anyone see this post?
arhh no one's looking at this dead blog anyway.
well..everything's not been turning out well ever since i went off mugging for o's.
screw tat damn geog ppr which made me screw the entire o's.
or maybe i shant put the entire blame on tat ppr but jus on my own mentality?
it was me who wasnt strong enough back then.
yah,im solely to be blamed.
one wrong decision and move which led to more regrets.
firstly,i screwed up my o's and yes,definitely,my results.
and guess wat?i had an a1 for humans! hah how ironic.
how much tears ive shed back then..it was jus dumbb.
then wat,my confidence level dropped and i screwed my tests in mjc.
and now,posted to mjc but not being able to get into 4h2.
never did i expect myself to end up in such a state.
a state such tat i have to actually appeal into sumthg tat i wanted.
ive been telling ppl around me tat its rather pointless to appeal into a jc when u dun even qualify for it.
but wat am i doing here?appealing for a subj combi which i cant even qualify for.
the pride and confidence which i once had was momentarily shattered.
it was the countless hard work tat ive put in and the successes tat i had in return which once convinced me tat hard work does pay off.
it was those successes which convinced me tat i am above the rest and i do have the capability to do well.
but now,i guess..im wrong after all?
i aint smart,but jus an ordinary mugger.
im probably nothing as compared to the rest hu has the intelligence?lol.
its hard not to compete after all these yrs when ive been doing so..
but i shall try to put off this mindset and start on a new jc life.
even if i din manage to get into the subj combi tat i want..i shall just think on the positive side?
maybe less stress and work to cope with?
and perhaps i can have more leisure time?
well,i shall just let it be and get on with life.

*praying - im just hoping tat things will turn for the better.

content to be simply myself;
neither comparing nor competing.
my ultimate goal/

2007-09-20T19:07:00.000-07:00

whoa its been approximately 2 months since i last blogged=/
hmm i was intending to leave this blog stagnant and let it rot or something..
but,boredom has left me with no choice but to bring this dead blog back to life again.
lolls.never had i thought that the sch wld allow us to have a one day break after the prelims..
WHILE the teachers are probably busy marking our scripts.
ehh nope,not probably.they must be.
hmm what can i say? i bet they'll puke or sumthg?

this prelim,maybe to me specifically,was kinda..screwed.
yah.honestly speaking,i dread facing the results.
its not tat im being pessimistic or whatever.but my intuition jus sumhow tells me tat its not gonna turn out well..
i mean,i was the one who sat for the ppr.
and i can roughly gauge the kind of marks tat im gonna get,and how well i fare..
yahh.and things are definitely not turning out as well as before (compared to the mye).
the temporary happiness is not gonna last.
3 days are jus gonna pass by and i guess its really time to face reality.
to be honest,i really worked doubly hard for my prelims as compared to the previous time.
and if...the results are not gonna pay off,i wonder wat will happen=/
i know its dumb,useless and mayb,embarrassing to cry over the results.
for wats done,cant be undone.
but sumtimes,tears jus come flowing down.and its really beyond your control.
disappointment? yup,thats the word.

hahh.my life jus seems to revolve around results..
kinda pathetic.and well,its been a long while since ive last given myself a break.
not even a chance to sit on the sofa and enjoy a tv programme..-.-
yeahh,its just all about books,textbooks and more booksss
how nice.

sumtimes,its just difficult to prioritise my time.
giving urself a break,or continuing with the mugging process?
and guilt always happens to leave me with the second option=/
that's MY life.
perhaps for now,i guess.

NOV13/ things will be different.

2007-07-13T02:38:00.000-07:00

hmm somehow i feel that its kinda pointless to post=/
firstly,it doesnt serve a purpose.
secondly,i feel like im this dumb person talking to myself-.-
and perhaps,no one's looking? (which in turn,may be a good thg)
but well,im kind of rotting at the moment..
so yah,ive decided to bring this stagnant blog back to life again!(:
i seem to be repeating this phrase for evry entry-.-
arrh whatever..
pardon me if i sound really random in this post cos i'll just type anythg tat comes to my mind yah?

HMM
school's just plain as usual.
but ive sumhow adapted to my new seat and yup,jonathan can appear kinda crappy at times.
or issit most of the while?lols=X
and he cracks his head and fingers pratically every 20minutes-.-
doesnt it hurt at all?
oh well,im random(:
hahah.well,at least i find sum entertainment at my new seat.lols!
ohh yah,secfours have stepped down from their ccas.
and guess what?mock exams are held EVERY friday in replace of our cca time!
yay so exciting.
i wonder when was this weird scheme implemented and who was the one who came up with such an idea..
nvm,that's just beside the point.
what i wanna emphasize is how dumb and inconsiderate the sch can be.(no offence=/)
i mean,since the secfours are having mock exams in the afternoon,shldnt we be given a quiet environment so as to concentrate on our papers?
but,the ug ppl just happened to be occupying the carpark during tat whole period of tym.
and they're shouting out their commands like nobody's business.
ncc sounded damn loud."GOOD MORNING SIR"
and i rmb hearing the yam sammmee cheer-.-
ohh yahh,and guides are damn high-pitched.
they went " lurp lurp lurp right" in a so freaking high tone that made everyone burst out laughing.
maybe it isnt tat funny after all..but more of a disturbance=/
and the hot weather these days are just making matters worse..
soo,i suggest that the church carpark shld be made out of bounds to all students.
YUP,strictly out of boundssssssssssss.
opps.im complaining a lil too much..
and oooh yah!
guess what man?
there was actually a debate between the physics and bio department on whether a bio or physics mock exam shld be scheduled next week.
that's rather..lame-.-
anddd the fun thing is..bio's gonna be our next common test!
topics to be tested: ALL TOPICS
conclusion: the school's insane
how on earth are we supposed to complete studying the whole syllabus within ONE WEEK?
like wth.and mrslee hasnt even touched on the last chpt..
this whole thing's just so damn cocked up.
rarrr! i soo dun wanna stay in sch for tat 2hrs45mins long paper..
OHYAH.another thing..
the school's having this mass count down system to our prelims!
its shown on tv and everywhere within the school compound.
58 more days to prelims!
and i must say that the school's wasting their ink and paper by printing out a new sheet evryday just to remind the secfours how near we are to the prelims.
i mean..such reminder dun even exist last year!
mayb it did..but i believe it wasnt as exaggerating.

HAH.i must say tat i really do hate secfour life..
the pressure tat the school's putting on us..with the days creeping nearer and nearer..
its just scares off.
sometimes,i really hope that olvls dun arrive.
but at times,i do hope that i can just get over and done with it.
sounds ironic=/

58days to prelims
every calling serves great purpose when greatly pursued.

HAH.

2007-06-26T01:18:00.000-07:00

ytd was the reopening of school,which officially marks the end of the june holidays.
june holidays -- probably the last time that i can truly take a break from my studies and get to enjoy.
as for now...its back to the hectic school life.
back to the old school environment blah blah.
and amazingly,i do find it strange eating in the canteen.it seems as though i haven been back for quite some time and evrythg just looked kind of unfamiliar in a way=/
somehow,school life din start off really well for me.
nothing really cropped up.
but yah,im just really really reluctant to face the fact that prelims and olvl are drawing nearer.
to imagine myself in the hall,seated tgt with the rest and the kind of stress and tension tats gonna build up at that point of time...well,it seriously scares me off.

honestly,im not exactly in the mood to type out anything nice here.
and just to mention the recent changes tat the school and well,ms ng has made.
the changing of time table wasnt really special except for the fact that we're dismissed 30mins later as compared to the past.
the 'second recess' thg was brought back sumhow..and yah.
i dread staying in sch..soo this new arrangement kinda suck=X
and today..a drastic change of seating arrangements.
i shall reserve my comments..
i guess it really takes time for me to adapt to the new change and all..
and personally,im not really good at handling such stuff...

sometimes i really do wonder.
whether am i making unnecessary moves or am i putting too much thoughts into this issue.
but somehow,you make me feel that it doesnt really matter anymore..
this whole thing just turned out to be really wrong.
and every moment i try to make it seem normal..
i'd feel as if im caught up in some kind of..some kind of
arhh i dunnnooo.
whatever.this is just some random crapp.
ignore it-

2007-06-05T04:31:00.000-07:00

for some reason,im back here again.
on a hope to feel better after typing some random crap(which i know tat im gonna do so)
yes,im feeling emo once and again.
and this post is highly recommonded to be ignored as there's a high possibility that you wun understang wat on earth am i rattling about.

somehow,i feel that there's this 'split personality' that's gradually developing right within me.
its somewhat like an 'angel and devil' thing tat ppl who are psychologically unstable tend to experience.
whenever i tell myself that i need a rest,there seems to be a voice in my head that opposes my decison.
it's hard to tell what's right from wrong.
it's even hard to differentiate the importance of certain things.

i've claimed that i wanna change.
to have a more positive attitude
to free my mind from negative thoughts.
but it's really really hard to refrain myself from having such thoughts.
am i really changing or merely escaping from reality?

although the difference may seem to be rather insignificant..
but it matters,to me at least.

ignorance is bliss-

2007-05-25T20:15:00.000-07:00

hey(: holidays have finally arrived!
and i must say that the past two weeks are definitely gonna be the best period of my entire secfour life.
as from monday onwards,i shall carry out my mugging process.
hmm this isn't anything to be proud of ya??=/
i have slacked for a total of fourteen days and i guess it's really about time to start working on my studies once again.
furthermore,eunice just reminded me a few days ago..
prelims are less in 2 months time.
hais.time really flies and in a matter of a few months,we'll be on a battle for the o's.
this is scarrryyyyyy=//

well,ytd was the last day of semester one.
we got back our report cards,set targets and most importantly..
we took class photos with our class jerseys(;
orange orange class jerseys!
hahah(:
i love 4h and
i miss 3hohsix badly ):

whoots im lost for words again..=X
well well.guess i shld just stop here..
sometimes i do think that it's a good idea to turn back to my studies again..
at the very least,i won't be rotting here,staring at this damn screen and wondering what i shld do.
hah ironic, isn't it?=/

holidays are really packed with homework,make up lessons.
and oh yes! wednesday's excursion((: (issit known as an excursion?lala i dunno)
im gonna make this june holidays a fruitful one for me[:
there's a time for study,but there's a time for play too!
yup(:

as i end off my post,i just wanna say all the best to the secfours who are taking the chinese olvls this coming monday(:
take it easy ya? have faith in yourself!
i wonder if anyone's looking at this -.-

lala!(:
for those who mind dont matter;
and those who matter don't mind

2007-05-19T01:55:00.000-07:00

hmm to be frank..ive arrived at this page several times,wanting to type a post.
i really need to bring this stagnant blog back to life ya?
but somehow,whenever im here..im entirely lost.
lost of words..
lost of the ability to express myself.
this place just seems strange=/ i cant type anything that comes to my mind.
or rather,my mind goes blank at the moment i reach here.
it's weirrdd.

ohwell.exams are over and done with.
and the results are back too.
reflecting on the past two days..
i begin to ponder..have i hurt anyone indirectly?
has my disappointment caused anyone to feel insulted?
did anyone actually think tat im merely just over reacting?

well,im really sorry if i did make anyone feel tat way.
i remembered mandice asking me," actually,i really wonder why are you feeling sad.."
i stared at her,shrugged and went speechless.
its a matter of expectations,isnt it?
seriously,sometimes i really do wonder..
why can't i take things lightly?
as in why must i always be overwhlemed with disappointment whenever i see poor results?
why can't i just be strong enough to control my emotions?

maybe,it's time to learn to be strong.
im gonna make a vow not to lose any more tears due to results.
and this is going to be a new, permanent change.
a new mindset.
(:

i promise..

i help you post

2007-04-13T01:42:00.000-07:00

heeeheee
ge wei da jia hao
gong xi fa cai
ang bao na lai ^^
this is the bigbig genius typing here
here's a gentle reminder to all our beloved sec4s:
MYE IS JUST 20 DAYS AWAY

........................................
gosh.. O.O

jiayou sherli, my babe
signing off,
your hawt tea
P.S. i love everyone aww~ :)
byebye all you sexy people out there ( stop peeking at me lar :* you know i know that you know)
haha
hoho

`HAO XIANG HAO XIANG ;
he ni zai yi qi :D
hao xiang hao xiang
*he ni yi qi shu xing xing*

^^ lol
haha i like wang leehom
I like wuzun

2007-03-21T01:27:00.000-07:00

well,it has been a long period evr since i started posting.
weeeks or maybe a month?
but im sure tat this post is gonna turn out to be one filled with negative thoughts and blah blah.
i seriously dunno what on earth is wrong with me these days.
but one thing im sure is,im gradually losing the faith,the courage,the strength to move on with my life.

i have been doing some random thinking these days.
results,family,feelings and most imptly my life.
i question my purpose of life.why am i here for?
am i here just to do things tat impress others?or am i here to lead my own life?
or maybe,i would just ask,why am i here in the first place?
i hate my existence in this world.
why must life turn out to be so tiring,so competitive,that im seriously against it?
it may be my mindset thats adding to the problem.
but i cant help feeling this way.
im TRYING HARD to control.im seriously trying..
but its difficult to put up a brave front,a smile, just to convince others that im perfectly fine.
it's a terrible feeling when your pillow gets soaked with tears evry night..
SIGHSSS.

i face setbacks and disappointment every now and then.
you may say that this is part and parcel of life.
it is the experience tat you gain from the journey...
but,such setbacks are just merely draining away my energy
whenever im determined to do something,somehow or someway,no results are shown.
and instead,i face with more failures.
my life's entirely SCREWEDD.
what's left is just hatred,disappointment and nothing more.

pull me back-

2007-02-16T05:59:00.000-08:00

HEYSS(:
lunar new year is approaching in two days time,and tmr's new year's eve!
it's the day when a family comes tgt,enjoying a widespread and heart-warming reunion dinner.
and yeahh.its my dad's birthday tmr:D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA
lols.just ordered a tiramisu birthday cake at breadtalk a day ago.
and i have to make a trip down to tm before 3 to collect it as breadtalk is having a 'half-day' tmr.
i seriously hope tat my effort wun go down the drain and hopefully,he'll be surprised((:
im proud to have a father like you:D

oh wells.
luck wasnt on my side today.(since when has luck ever shone on me?-.-)
but rarr! i just committed THREE embarrassing acts today.
i bet the ppl around me must be having a good laugh abt it.
and nope,im so not gonna go into details about them.*too bad*
just had this sixth sense that something bad was gonna happen today.
and true enough,the screwing up of the 'angel and mortal game' proved me right.
sighhhs..and seriously,it isnt anyone's fault lah( not even kahkee )
so there's no need for the symphatizing or whatever yeah?
im just purely unlucky=/

hahh.dun really have the mood to post right now.
but im just glad that chinese new year is finally a break for me.
im free frm tuitions this weekend!(x
and yups,no tests nxt week too(:
and half day next weds!
LOLL.im highhh:D woots.
well,hope that you guys enjoy the new year and yup.
do rmb that a new yr represents a new beginning(:
and yup.ENJOY THE FOOD!
and of course,more hongbaos too(x
hahah.take care guys.
HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR
gong xi gong xi~

2007-02-10T07:47:00.000-08:00

i happened to read thru my previous post agn and yup.
i just wanna add on..im not typing that post just to gain sympathy frm you guys.
seriously,im not looking forward to anyone reading sum really dumb and senseless posts of mine.
i mean yah,the number of tags just explains everything.
well,dun get the wrong idea.im not trying to hint or imply anything.
on the contrary,i like it and i prefer things to stay like this.
personally,i just feel tat this blog is a place for me to pour out emotions and also to reveal my true self.
i mean whats the whole point of blogging when you're just out to please people,wanting them to enjoy reading your posts?

sorry for starting the post in such an impolite manner.
im just rahh.i dunno...just wondering if you guys are really thinking in that way.
but well,it doesn't matter now.
anyway just to emphasize,the 'seven tests' week is officially done with!
it wasnt easy trying to stay strong all these while,i must say.
thanks for all those encouragement(esp pris,siewting,qin and mandice)
i'll never forget the day when you guys looked thru me last friday.
the continuous sms-es that you've send..the encouraging note thrown to me.
well,more tears came down due to the mere fact that i was touched.really touched..
frankly,i thought i was just someone unimportant.
a friend,but nth beyond that..
thanks for the re-assurance that you guys gave(:
im turning stronger after each shed of tear.

went out with siewting today(:
and yup.we claimed to have dedicated 'our first times' to kbox.(tats just a direct translation frm chinese)
hahah shant elaborate more on tat.it was jus embarrassing=/
but well,we've proved ourselves to be EMOTIONAL.
and hey,tat isnt a bad thing okayy(:
as wat siewting has said,sumtimes you feel tat it's an accomplishment to cry.
weirdos indeed.but sumtimes i do agree tat this statement's true.(siewting must be rejoicing over the fact that she isnt crazy! LOL)
anyway,thanks siewting.
im not good with words.but yah,i do hope tat you can sumhow sense my sincerity.
i trust that we have telepathy huh?(x
you've proven to be more than just a friend

a hug is a smile of the heart that touches us through the embrace of caring arms.
youre NEVER alone.
no matter what,i'll be there to give my utmost support.
i'll do my part and i hope that you can do yours too,by just learning to stay strong.
a second life represents a new beggining(:
im praying for you,my dearest dad.

2007-01-27T23:45:00.000-08:00

im currently emotionally unstable.
oh well, i appear to be weird at times.
i was laughing like a lunatic in tuition an hour ago.
and now? im undergoing some random mood swings.
not one that's stressing me up at least=/

you know what,after much considerations,ive decided be frank at this moment.
pouring out thoughts and feelings tat come straight into my mind,and not on an attempt to hide away from my reality.
ive been keeping certain things to myself since tat very fateful day.
and yup.i was determined to stay strong from that day on.
but unfortunately, things were easier said than done.

i had a dinner with my dad earlier on.
its been a long time since i last seen him.
you might ask me why?
well( as i said that im gonna be frank), my family's separated and he's living alone now.
i felt this throbbing pain in my heart at the very moment when my eyes met his.
somehow,i could sense the loneliness in him.
i knew that he longed for care and concern frm anyone of us.
i knew that he was lost,disappointed and tired.
at that very second,i had this sudden urge to give him a hug.
but apparently,i didnt.WHY?
mayb i felt that it was embarrassing to act in such a way,esp in a public place.
or mayb,it was due to the presence of his friend.

excuses.they're just excuses.
you're just a timid daughter who doesnt have the guards to offer just a simple hug.
to show that you care,to show that you're always there for him.
you're such a loser.

fine.i admit that im a failure,an unfilial daughter.
but that was not all.the long 'lecture' that he gave during tat duration of time,was truly unforgettable.
and yup.it was only at that fraction of second,when i came to realise that im blessed.
im blessed to have such understanding parents.
all along,i used to have this thought that they cared only for themselves.
and my duty was to attain good results and do them proud.
it wasnt easy trying to meet their expectations.but still,i did.
and now,i realise that i was abosolutely wrong.
although my memory may be failing me at the moment,but yup.
i still do have a rough idea of what he said to me ytd.

during this time when im away frm home,separated from you guys,i finally experience what life truly is.
and all in all,i missed you all terribly.
i did all my best,trying to bring good to the family.
and i failed for now,but not yet.
im determined to do the best for the family and i strongly believe that one very fine day,i'll succeed.

please bear in mind that, papa and mummy don't dominate your life.
you make your own choices and we'll give you the support.
remember, ambitions may alter as time passes.
indeed,we'll be proud if you turn out as a doctor one day.
but as i said,do things that you like and have interest in.
only then,you'll lead a happy life.
you may choose to be an accontant.
and i believe that,with with sufficient hard work,you'll turn out to be equally successful,as singapore is a financial centre.
OR you may choose to be an engineer and become a 'tom-boy'.
well,as long as you're happy,we're fine with any choices you make.

-im touched by his long speech.

and i guess it is time to stop thinking negatively.
for the sake of my parents and my future,i'll fight my way through.
-

trust me,i WILL.

2007-01-19T03:07:00.000-08:00

life is a road that i wanna keep going,
love is a river that i wanna keep flowing.
life is a road,now and forever, wonderful journey(:

hehs.im finally back to bring this pathetic blog back to life.
yupyup(: it's been like two weeks ever since i last updated yah?
but! at the very least,im MUCH better than siewting,who doesnt bother to type a post hur.
*hint hint* foosiewting,i hereby command YOU to type a post NOW!
gogogo! LOLS.
what a spastic way to start off my post huh.
anyway, it's siewting's birthday tmr!(x
ohwell,here comes my blessings..
FOOSIEWTING, my ultimate dearr<33
you're officially sixteen now huh.
therefore..you got to be more mature yah?(x lols.
do rmb to enjoy your very special day tmr and dun forget to think abt me!
although i cant be there to share the joy,but hmm,just rmb that im here to give you my sincere blessings(:
PS* im drooling while thinking of your birthday cake (offer me a piece,will you?^^)
oh yahh.best wishes to athena too!
two fellow classmates born on the same date(:

school days are tiring,and terribly boring.
that's the only thing that comes to my mind,after experiencing two weeks of school life.
tonnes of homework that never fail to keep me busy all the time.
countless TESTS (again?) that stress me up all these while.
what an 'interesting' way to start the year 2007.
but still,friends are always there to keep your life going((:
till now,i still do feel disappointed abt the change of seating arrangement.
i miss siewting's entertainment and yup.
i must say that i always feel a sense of comfort whenever she gives me a pat on the shoulder,telling me to hang on.
thanks alot yah?(: you'd never know how much that matters to me.
sad to say,you're a great distance from me now.(i mean literally)
as for now,im trying real hard to adapt and at the same time,train my social skills.

HMM in conclusion,life's not exactly fufiling.
but,im gonna accept reality as it is [:
as for the upcoming FIVE tests next week, im sooo gonna stay strong.
JIAYOUS to you guys out there.smile yeah?

2006-12-30T18:15:00.000-08:00

2006年的最后一日

十字路口有着直接的交会,直截了当.
若凡是都是如此,是不是会省去了许许多多的思想?
还是,应该是那种平衡线的神秘以及期待感所带来的美丽,让生命更丰富?
-'summarised' frm yalun's blog(:

面对2007年的来临,坦诚的说,我百感交集.
这是我生平第一次,如此的憎恨如此的抗拒跨入新的一年.
根据以往的经验,我都是以一种非常期待,非常兴奋的心情面对着新的一年所带来的挑战.
但如今,心理头的感触却正好相反.
心中有着七分的担忧与害怕,以及剩下三分的恐惧.
为何心中会有着这种既莫名其妙又复杂的感触呢?
我知道,甚至了解..自己并不需要任何的解释.
在我内心深处,我了解自己真正想要的是什么,追求的是什么,厌恶的是什么,害怕的是什么.
但毕竟我已失去了选择的权利..
我多么希望自己能够拥有让时间暂停或倒流的威力,让我回到从前的那个我,思想单纯的我.
但我学会了一点..
与其让自己的思绪与脚步停留在这一刻,不如拿出真正的勇气与毅力来面对新的挑战.
不断的回忆起伤心的往事,使自己在原地上踏步..
这不单只是害到了自己..甚至使你在不知不觉的情况下深深的伤害到了身旁的人.

正如炎亚纶所说的,或许是因为平衡线所带来的期待感,让人的生命更加丰富..
倘若生命真如十字路口般的了当,直接..
那么,我们又能够学到了什么?我们又如何能理解自己存在的价值呢?
我认为,人必须通过种种的考验以及挑战,才能从中而学会到了做人的原则与生存的意义. 不是吗?
当然,说的比做的还来得简单,容易多了.
但我已选择了相信自己...
相信自己能以一个乐观的心态,排除心中种种的担忧,面对新的一年所带来的新的挑战.
即使心中有再大的不舍,我也仍然勇敢坚强的坚持下去(:

2007年O水准! 我如今向你提出挑战!
我即将设定你为目标!
为了我未来的生活与事业着想,我决定要拿出自己最大的勇气来,将你彻底的打败.

我知道,心中最大的敌人,并不是任何的生外之物,更不是身边的任何人...而是远在天边.近在眼前的自己.
所以,唯有打败自己心中悲观的想法,才能够使问题有个圆满的解决.

在此,我深切的希望,大家能够以一丝灿烂的笑容,迎接这新的一年.
新的一年代表着新的开始..
排除内心所又不愉快的事,只留下那些美好与有价值的回忆..是我们大家都得做到的.
凡是都要往好的方面去想,不是吗?

面对着新的一年,新的挑战,新的环境
我充满着期待...

2006-12-28T23:13:00.001-08:00

heys(:
i can finally type in chinese!all thanks to siewting...siewting's com.(not her)
yay! 符秀婷爱颜雪丽(:
你知道吗？我们之间真的有一种非常邪的默契。
唱歌的怪方式都是一模一样。实在令人感到厌烦啊。
唉..我打字的速度实在是太慢了。我都快被我的速度气得快疯掉了。
我不想再继续写下去了..
因为秀婷家的互联网真是烂啊。我真怕这辛辛苦苦打出来的字会凭空消失.
就此搁笔吧^^
<3 吴尊（秀婷也是啦）
=DD

2006-12-27T06:22:00.000-08:00

great.im finally bringing myself to blog(:
but ive got nothing in mind right now, which kinda contradicts my purpose up here.
seriously,ive been lacking the inspiration to blog all these while..and it therefore explains why my posts are shrinking in length=/
wellll,2006 is coming to an end soon.and yup ive promised siewting to type a looonng post tat focuses on the topic-- reflections and resolutions.
i guess it'll only be up on the 31st of dec,the day when people gather themselves tgt and welcome the upcoming new year.(with fireworks display,i guess?)
errm tat sentence dun seem to link-.-

you know what?
ive got this sudden urge to type a post in chinese.
somehow,i think im stronger in tat language and wld most probably be able to express myself in a better way.
but sadly,i cant seem to locate any damn chinese software or even a language bar in my com.
rarrr.i must be influenced by siewting and our conversation abt yalun(x
he's got fantastic writing skills and types real meaningful stuff tat moves me.
http://www.wretch.cc/blog/arronbubest
have a look yah.
moreover,he's got an attractive outlook((:
which equates to GOOD-looking(shuai) :D

anyway,we made a trip to kinokuniya today.
and and and.
i saw hua yang shao nian shao nv's novel!
but with the state im in now,im obviously unable to afford the 15bucks:(
guess what?im like offically BROKE now.
and i want the novel badly.as in yahh.realllllllll badly.
oh well.gansherli's just being desperate right now..=/

*scrolls up and look*
omg.why have i typed so much crap?
ohwell.if you appear to be reading this stupid post,bear with wats going thru my mind yah?
cos my brain's ain't working well.
anyway, bless those victims in taiwan.
although they're not gonna see this,but i sincerely hope that they'll be able to pull thru this fateful disaster and move on with life(:
you may have lost your loved ones.
but think it in another way,they've sacrificed their lives(despite directly or indirectly) for yours.
so, for the sake of them and the ppl who've been caring for you all along, wipe off your tears and put on a smile(:
that wld make their sacrifices worthwhile,wont it?
may god bless you guys..

well.im ending off here then.
sorry for this random post.
((:

2006-12-24T03:37:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!(:
im like finally in a proper christmas mood.
went out on a shopping trip to parkway tgt with my mum tis afternoon.
and guess what?we spent a total of 4hrs(i think) shopping for gifts and ended up carrying lotsa stuff back home.
rather satisfying,as i helped select gifts for my mum(though i din pay for them=X)
i got my christmas gift too:D a billabong bag.
although the design's kinda outdated.but watevr,it's on discount anyway.
hahh.im saving money for my mum(:
anyway,ive been freeing myself for work for like three consecutive days.
so,ive gotta start working on my zuowens tmr.
two more to go,and im FINALLY done with school work.
all the more,ive gotta refresh my memory on the book "ting qing chun zai ku qi".
test on the first day of sch rmb?
rarrr it just spoils evrythg):
oh wells, have a holly jolly christmas evryone and also,a fabulous year ahead(:
we're gonna face the upcoming challenges with courage and strong determination!
jiayous:D

dreaming of a white christmas;
we're going on a sleigh ride.WHEEE(:

2006-12-22T08:08:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELVIN NG!:D

i was told by qin that it's elvin's birthday today(:
hahh.random huhh.
anyway,i just got back from 2bee xmas party an hour ago.
i guess i must be missing out lotsa fun as i was the only one who left early.
didnt manage to enjoy the logcake tgt with them,but hmm i had fun bbq-ing stuff.
there was a lil drizzle here and there,but we managed to bbq the food with hmm determination?lols.
yupyup.i'll always rmb the period when germaine and i were breaking the joints of the poor raw chicken wings.
the sauce(and blood) was all over my hands and arms.
arrgh.it was real disgusting.(but fun ehh?) :D
overall,evrythg went on quite smoothly except for the part when i felt kinda out of place=/
shant elaborate on tat,as it's just gonna spoil the atmosphere.
anyway,MERRY CHRISTMAS to you guys out there!
have fun yahh(:
it's a pity tat i din manage to play with those 'fire crackers' which i saw earlier on.
but oh well,seeyah guys real soon when sch reopens(:
take care.

2006-12-20T04:07:00.000-08:00

it feels rather weird to start updating my blog once again.
ive been pressing the 'backspace' key countless times,just to think of a proper way to start my post.
but as you can see,my introduction above is stupid=/
LOL.well,i was back from thailand exactly a week ago.
the trip was unforgettable,i must say. bought lotsa stuff and smuggled qte a number of gummies back home=X
but unfortunately,i fell sick ever since,for three consecutive days.
the feeling of puking was disturbing me every now and then.(sounds rather disgusting huh?)
but yup,im all WELL now!(x all thanks to some weird chinese medicine recommended by my aunt,which tasted seriously bitter.
well well.life's still boring for me as usual.
nothing much happened.
and yup,like many of you guys out there,im here at home,trying to rush thru the holiday assignments.
felt kinda stressed up=//
but anyway,to all those who are trying to catch up with their work,JIAYOUS alrite?
im here to keep you going!(: hahh.mental support ehh:D
anglican high.where talents soar.
randomm-.-

anyway,im caught up with a really niiccee drama recently!
hua yang shao nian shao nv (HANA KIMI)
it's a pity that only one episode gets uploaded a week.
which means,i have to undergo seven days of waiting before getting to watch the next episode.
BOOOOSS.and im seriously fa-ing hua chi((x
SO SO SO SO in love with WUZUN!<33 lolls.

zuoyiquan(x

2006-12-03T07:29:00.000-08:00

luck is when preparation meets opportunities(:
yup:D meaningful isnt it?
i was kinda stunned to find this in the biology textbook.hahh.
boredom
boredom
boredom
is SOOOO killing me.
six zuowen and book reviews tat are left undone.
i can't wait to leave singapore now.
im just so sick of lazing around at home and being abosolutely alone.
BOOOS:(
out of casssssshhhh$$$.
hahh random=/

2006-12-01T06:28:00.000-08:00

oh wells.im back here with a post again,due to some 'pestering' from a fren.
no offence ehh?=X
well,with regards to this fren,WILLIE QUEK.heh heh.
ive decided to add some praises of him down here.
im kind of surprised to see a change in him as i was chatting with him on msn.
his ability to read someone's character,the kind of advices he gave to me abt life made me hmm stunned?hahah.
willie arh.it seems tat i shld change my thoughts of you now huhh.
associate you with the word "mature".lolls.(though im not exactly mature too=/)
anyway,please do be honoured tat i mentioned you in my post yah?(x
and and and.please dun forget abt the promise tat you've made.
*you know wat i mean.hahh!

well,talking abt my LIFE.
boredom's seriously killing me.booos.
i just got my new pair of specs today.
black frames and orange inside.blahh bad description.
but it's giving me problems rite now.
the frames are a lil too tight and the worst thing is,i feel as if im floating=/
*flooooaaatttsss up down left right*
i guess i need a lil more time to adapt to this new pair of specs(:
andand im going on an overseas trip again :D
this time im flying off to thailand! which means tat i get to enjoy another experience on a plane.
whoo im high(x
i just sooo love planes.i love the feeling of looking out thru tat small window by the sides.
i love the feeling of being served.
and hmm i love the food in the plane.though it doesnt taste tat good at all times,but i just the love the way the food is packaged in.
im weird=/ hahah.

nth much to talk about now.
my life's just plain boringggg.
and there's still loads of homework to be done you know.
LOTS to do and yet,there's this sense of reluctance in me.
im soooo against homework rite now.shuckks.
*raises hand and admits*
i cant drag this post any longer.
my specs are stressing my poor eyes.*cries.
shall give them a break now.
so hmm.shall be back with my next post real soon.
i hope=X
buhbyes.

2006-11-25T08:22:00.000-08:00

*looks at time rite now*
and it reads: 12.15am?hah.
random.
why am i posting at such a late hour?hmm no idea.
maybe it helps to kill time and errm at the least,keep me awake.
well,today appeared to be really dramatic.
i woke up to have breakfast and went tgt with my mum down to tampines to do something which may appear ridiculous to you guys out there.
to sign up for physics tuition,which is commencing at 10am tmr,and also for the consecutive sundays.
i was the one who came up with that crazy idea.
but hahh.december's approaching and so is the year2007.
and soon,i'll be on my way to the olvls.
peparation,mental preparation.yup i guess tats wat i need.
and now tuition's a need for me(:
insane thoughts huh=/

my night was wayy amazing.
i was amazed tat a book could actually made tears roll down like nobody's business.
tuesdays with morrie,a true story.
a story,or rather a lecture,that touched my life and also the lives of others(:
i've learnt the true meaning of life and also to face it with acceptance.

so many people walk around with a meaningless life.
they seem half-asleep,even when they're busy doing things they think are important.
this is because they are chasing the wrong things.
the way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others,devote youself to your community around you,and devote yourself to create something that gives you purpose and meaning.

i guess,im one of those victims out there who are somewhat half-alseep.
although i dun seem to find my direction of life now,but i swear,sooner or later i would.
yup.devote myself to loving those people who showed care for me and also to the community,which appears foreign and unknown to me.
but,as what the five people you meet in heaven says,
strangers are families you've yet come to know.aint it?

learn to detach.
detachment doesn't mean you don't let the experience penetrate you.
on the contrary,you let it penetrate you fully.
that's how you're able to leave it.

i think i have to get some sleep now,although i still have the temptation to go on with this emotional post and typing more meaningful quotes & phrases.
blahh.got to get up early tmr=/
physics physics physics.
buhbyes(:
-tension of opposites
i need to be decisive for once,for the sake of no one,but myself.

2006-11-20T05:28:00.000-08:00

HAHH.im back from my trip to malaysia.
it wasn't exactly a memorable one,but at least i did enjoy myself to some extent.
yepp.i was practically stuffing myself with LOTS of food throughout the whole journey and always ended up bloated.
must have gained lotsa calories after eating those fattening stuff=X
oh yah.not forgetting to mention,the bus was real high class man.
huge, comfy seats(: HEH.
but i just do have difficulty sleeping in a bus.my neck's aching till now.
and as result,ive developed serious eye bags due to insufficient sleep.
ohoh.and guess wat?we reached our hotel at 2AM.amazing huhh.
what we've been doing was just walking,eating,shopping.and the whole cycle just repeats itself?lolls.
did nth much.but i saw the real batik! not printed frm factories,but hand drawn(:
you wouldnt believe how fast those workers can draw on the cloth.
their speed of drawing would just make you stare and even go 'woooaaahh'.
...
shucks.im lost for words again.
nvr mind.i shall put up some pictures then(:

we share the same room(:
i thought this was artistic.HAHH(x

taken when we made a trip to a chocolate factory(:
NICE chocolates.they look really tempting huhh.

thats the process of making a batik.
-drawing with wax-

-painting-

-the result!-

a&w ice cream waffle!YUM((:
rare food that most probably cant be found in s'pore!
but it looks a lil disgusting frm this angle lah=X

a&w root beer(x

hahh.im reading 'the five people you meet in heaven' currently(:
a real meaningful book that tells you what life's all about.
nice quotes can be found everywhere.
and yup.i shall list them down here to share them with you guys out there.

no life's a waste.
the only time we waste is the time we spend thinking that we're alone.

death doesn't just take someone,it misses someone else, and in the small distance between being taken and being missed,lives are changed.

strangers are just family you have yet come to know.

sometimes when you sacrifice something precious,you're not really losing it.
you're just passing it on to someone else(:

yays(: meaningful,aren't they?
well,im just halfway thru the book so they're more to come.
shall end off here then.
buhbyes!(:

-never let your heart rule your mind?
maybe it's just the other way round.

2006-11-15T07:30:00.000-08:00

im losing a sense of direction in my life,i guess.
have you guys ever wondered what's your goal in life?
what are you studying for?what do you actually want?
i remembered someone stopping me on the streets earlier this year,asking me tat question.
and i was momentarily,lost for words,not knowing wat on earth i should say.
studying for the sake of studying,am i?
and ended up thinking that results are kind of the most important thing in my life?
or rather,am i doing all these just for the sake of the high hopes that my parents have casted on me?
what exactly have i done for myself?
indeed,ive been escaping.and should i continue to do so?
*slaps myself back to reality*
hahh.stupid of me to think of such stuff huh.
my thoughts are going wrong,wrong WRONG.
do results really matter tat much in the first place?
is it worth getting into some sort of a depression because of studies?
NAH.it isn't.it definitely isn't.
secthree has been a tough year for me.
it has also been the year when i somehow,changed my perspective towards studies.
ive been taking it too seriously,and im aware of tat.
shedding tears due to disappointing results and getting all so stressed up due to exams and tests that were coming up.
i was dumb.really dumb.
its the journey that's more important,isn't it?
hahh.im such an idiot.

pessimistic post.yes,it is.
im in a horrible mood right now.
negative thoughts are just killing,torturing my darn brain.
somehow,i wished i could just bang myself hard against the wall.
maybe through tat way,i'll then suffer from a memory loss or something.
FREE my thoughtss.
my life's entirely screwed at the moment.
-hatred's filling me.

2006-11-14T05:54:00.000-08:00

wen shi jian qing wei he wu,
zhi jiao sheng si xiang xu?
random quote.
but somehow,that's the only phrase that comes straight into my mind after watching a series of dramas.
i wonder if one would truly make sacrification for the one he/she loves.
as what ive seen from the dramas,love's such a (how shld i put it) beautiful thing?
a person who makes your life more meaningful.
and perhaps,you'd be willing to do anything for an exchange of his/her smile.
well,but i have to admit that they're all dramatic.
or in other words,im utterly confused.
i realised tat ive been immature all along.
misunderstandings of my own feelings..blahblah.shant continue any further.
but yeah,i realised ive got absolutely no rights to talk abt this at the moment.
the feeling just isnt there=/
im just a childish,idiotic person on earth.
sighhs..

ohwell.im being really random again.
hah sorry.
apparently,ive lost the interest in making an effort to blog frequently.
partially due to the fact that..not many people seem to be looking at this deserted blog?
hahh.this may be good in certain ways.
firstly,it helps to reduce spammage on my tagboard..
and probably through this way,i would then be able to type put my true feelings?
hahh.this doesnt seem to make any link.
i guess im typing out this post to fuyan you guys out there=/
okayy.cut the crap.i have to post something tats got to be related to my life huh.
well,my throat isnt showing any signs of improvement.
pain pain and MORE pain.
or rather,looking at another point of view,im not doing anything to help myself either.
ive been eating fried food,chocolates and MORE fried food.
and im kinda addicted to fishermen sweets recently.
strong mint and somehow it makes me feel comfortable((:
LOL.im hoping tat it'll create a 'yu du gong du' effect in a way=/

i took a looonng 'mrt and bus' ride back home today.
it was kind of a terrible ride,as i was alone.
yup.sometimes,i just hate being alone..
cos it's the time when i'll be overwhlemed with all sorts of emotions and my thoughts would somehow go wild,pratically staring at evrythg i see.
and tears would just flow down unknowingly..
hah.i know it's kind of weird lah.
but tats wat normally happens when im alone.
i hate it when my feelings turn sour.
i hate it when im being forced to think about things which i hope that i can escape from.
i truly want to free myself from such negative thoughts.
i truly want to stay happy,not just on the surface,but from deep down my heart.
NAHH.*whacks myself*
my thoughts are drifting too far.im sorry=X
anyway,i prevented myself from thinking by reading a book.
i was absoultely engrossed, kind of fascinated with the events taking place in the book.
but it turned out to be a bad experience after all.
i was on the edge of throwing up when i got off the bus=//
felt giddy you know.
it was a bad choice to read in a bus. :(

lalala.i shall not let this turn into a pessimistic post.
gansherli has gotta smile! uh huhs.
sounds a lil dumb huh=X
well,im going on a trip to kuala lumpur this coming friday.
really looking forward to play,shop and eat!(x
3 days, two nights.rather short..
hahah.im lost for words right now.
shall end off this post then.
buhbyess(:

let bygones be by bygones.
things are definitely gonna turn for the better-

2006-11-10T03:17:00.000-08:00

i guess im updating more often than anyone else huh.
but well,it isn't a good thing after all as im really running out of things to say.
my posts just dun seem to link after some while and my thoughts will somehow just go haywire.
but posting kills boredom!which therefore explains why im here every now and then=/
lol.random-ness
well,im not feeling very well now.
ive got this sudden burning sensation down my throat and there seems to be an ulcer appearing near my gums.
the pain is just unbearable.
i feel as if the left side of my throat is entirely swollen.
oucch.and ive got difficulty swallowing stuff now,and that includes drinking water.
im in serious PAIN.ughh.
ohwell.that's a result of eating too much heaty stuff recently.
popcorns,titbits,fast food,chocolates.
im guilty and i jolly well know that the pain im undergoing now is definitely a retribution or something.
sighh.im praying that this sore throat doesn't lead to a fever or any form of sickness that's probably gonna take away half of my life.
and frankly,im starving right now.hah.
the feeling's definitely ugh.undescribable.

went to vivo city to catch a movie again.
somehow the experience is different,in terms of the fun i had.
duh.a date with eunice is always exciting as she never fails to make me laugh at her lame jokes or lame actions?lol.no offence.
anyway,we watched the movie- step up.
it was god damn COOL mann.
yeahh mann.lol.
for your info,im trying to imitate a guy in the movie.
okay,this doesn't seem to make any sense.
but,it was my first time sitting at the second row from the screen.
bad experience,i must say.
it was lucky that my neck didn't get sprained or something,but well,it still hurts.
raising ur head up for 2 straight hours isn't fun okay.
but, i shall take it as an experience or rather a lesson learnt.
i swear that i'll never sit in front again=/
anyway,back to the content of the movie.
i love those people dancing to the music,esp the male and female lead.
they can dance really well.
i truly admire those flexible movements that they can make.
it'll just make me stare into the screen with urm,my mouth wide opened?lol.
it was also the first movie that i watched which doesn't include subtitles.
which means,i have to actually figure out what the black angmohs and the white angmohs were trying to say.(im trying hard not to be racist here)
okay.to be precise,black and white americans yah?=/
they just got this slang in their speech which i dun seem to understand.hahh.
i guess im saving up money to buy the soundtrack of this movie.
i just lovee those songs((:

well,
im feeling damn restless now.
and my entire body's aching like mad.
shall stop here then.
seeyah(:

2006-11-08T04:56:00.000-08:00

Hold a friend's hand through times of trial,
Let her find love through a hug and a smile;
But also know when it is time to let go
-For each and everyone of us must learn to grow. (:
awws*
does this sound familiar eunice?((x
hahah.just got this sudden urge to post sum meaningful quotes up here.
yups(:
a friend in need,is a friend in deed.
lols.im getting way too emotional=/
well,nothing much happened today.
so im just typing this random post to kill boredom.hah.

"Each friend represents a world in us,
a world possibly not born until they arrive,
and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born."
- Anais Nin

random random.

2006-11-06T22:02:00.000-08:00

heys im back once again(:
im kinda sick of repeating that phrase again and again every time i start typing a post.
HAH.but oh wells,my english is wayy bad.
unless someone is able to help me come up with a sentence more entertaining than tat=/
loll.okay that's a little random.
i thought of continuing the list of friends ytd,but sad to say,i felt really restless.
and the feeling's somehow not there.
sorry if i missed out some of you guys but yeah,i will try to complete that list when the feeling's back.
im a weirdo=//

was supposed to 'have fun' in escape theme park ytd as my sis agreed to pay for our trip there.
i must say that i had phobia going there at first.
i remembered vomitting twice as i could not take those thrilling rides.(esp the pirate ship,which nvr fails to make my heart lose a beat)
but since it was a free trip,i might as well give it a try again.
so yup,i went with my sis,her bf and my small little cousin.
but to our dismay,it was CLOSED.
hahhh.that kind of destroyed the day.
i didnt know that escape theme park only opens during weekends and public holidays=/
so as we walked back to the bus stop,we came up with lots of suggestions on the next place we shall go.
ideas like going to the zoo,jurong bird park and ecp start popping out.
it was lame,i know.but singapore is small and boring yah.
in the end,i suggested going to vivo city!
i thought it was a great idea as it was my first time going there and i wanna catch a movie too((:
the others agreed and we took a mrt from pasir ris all the way to harbour front.
a long jorney indeed,but it was worthwhile(:
vivo city was WAAAYYYY huge.
although it's not officially opened yet,but everythg was almost done.
there were countless shops arranged in a confusing,yet unique manner.
the sceneries are NICE too(x great place for relaxation.
we went to catch 'the guardian' at golden village after shopping around a quarter of the place.
yup.that really explains how big it is(:
the guardian was nice and touching.
it made me laugh at some dumb scenes and also made my tears fall.
sounds ironic,but well,my mood's affected after the whole thing ended.
just got this sudden mood swing and i started ignoring the people around me.
im really a weirdo=/
but i had fun ytd.alot alot of fun(x

and i managed to watch the ending episode of weixiao pasta!
it was FREAKIN niiccee(:
touching,heart-wrenching and HAPPY!awws*
i lovee weixiao pasta<33
okay im obsessed with this show.
THREE CHEERS for a happy ending((:

2006-11-05T05:22:00.000-08:00

heys! im back once again(:
decided to update my blog more often now.
well,i hope that it can help to kill boredom in a way or another yah?
lols.ive decided to split my reflection of this year into a number of posts.
maybe due to the fact that ive got coutntless things to talk abt and also countless people to thank(:
so yup.this will be the very first part and i hope that it does not bore you guys as i got this feeling that this post is gonna be exceptionally looooonnngg.
PART ONE: giving thanks(:
i would really really like to thank all my friends who have given me the support throughout this entire year,helping me along,and also comforting me when im down.
yups.even though it's just a matter of giving me a pat of my back or a sms to cheer me up,it really does matter alot to me.
and for now,i wanna express my gratitude to you guys,one by one.

samantha
hey gurl! lols.
i do remember the days when we once go crazy tgt in 2beeohfive.
always being late for class as you and mandice tend to eat at a really slow speed.
and also not forgetting those home ec classes when i was working tgt with you as a partner.
we always forgot to bring our rags and apron to sch rmb?
LOL.as a result,we had to sweep the floor and close the windows after every homec lesson.
we always ended up getting scolded tgt while sewing that stupid pink cloth.
mdmteo really do hate us huh?
i really miss those days :(
although we're in different classes now,but i still would like to thank you for being such a great fren last yr.
and also thanks for that HUGE pat on my back that you wld always give me every time i walked past you.
seriously,it hurts=/ lols.
register 9 and 10 hmm ROCKS(x
tats a lil random.hahah.

mandice
MANDICE LIEU.a spastic friend.
lols.seriously,i really missed those days when we were once sitting tgt, gossiping with pris and qinqin.
i would always see you dozing off in such a 'nice' manner and always not getting caught.
and also,you and your spastic jokes tat never fails to make me laugh.
thanks for entertaining me so much yah?
although it sounds a lil dumb but yah, thanks(:
just wanna say that i really did enjoy myself when we were having our lunch at seoul garden tat day.
although pris wasnt able to join us tat day,i still thought tat it was a blessing in disguise.
the two of us did have a great time i guess.
scooping ice-cream from the ice-cream tubs,cooking the chickens and boiling the hot-dogs.
hahah.i really had fun that day(:
although i have to admit that we're not as close as before,due to some reasons, but you're still a great fren of mine!
thanks for making my life in 3h a memorable one(:

EUNICE((:
EUNICESHI! be honoured that your name is in caps lock yah?lols.
i still rmb the day when i first got to know you,or rather,you first got to know me.
-xiang dang chu wo shi zen me ren shi ni!(x
i was sitting in front of you, i guess.
it was the day when we had our cca orientation yah?
and i wrote my class as 6/1 when it's supposed to be 1b instead.
and you tapped on my shoulder,saying that i wrote it wrongly.
seriously,at that moment of time,i felt really embarrassed=/
and from then,fate starts playing an important part in our friendship.awws*
we actually got into the same cca!LOL.
thats when i really got to know you and also realise that you're a great friend to be with(:
we've been slacking alot during cca time, gossiping and talking our hearts out.
and i guess that the seniors had really given up on us yah?=X
but i must say that i really enjoyed your companion.
you never fail to give me the greatest consoles when im down.
you would always try to understand how exactly i was feeling then.
and for all that you've done,THANKS!(:
i enjoyed every outing with you,eating tgt,taking nice nice neos,watching movies and also, not forgetting our trip to kbox!
thanks for dedicating all those love songs to me yeah?<33 our dates are always so memorable.LOL. i guess our friendship is gonna last for eternity yah?
THANKYOU SO MUCH!
you've made my journey this year worthwile(:
*sakura sakura
sa man qing chun de mo fa
ca gan yan lei shuo sheng zai hui dou shi cheng zhang de dai jia-

siewting-HAM(:
HEYYS dumbdumb.it's finally your turn!LOLS.
well,what can i say?
you've always been creating so much entertainment in my life with your oh-so-lame jokes.
you never fail to make the atmosphere freezing cold.lols.
conclusion: siewting's lame and childish(:
okay that's the end of your part.
wahhahah.okay lah.i was just joking.
but seriously,u never fail to make me laugh,whether it is talking on msn or talking to you in person.
sometimes i would just laugh my head off while looking at your conversation in the com.and at tat moment of time,the ppl around me were thinking tat im mad.
HAH.it's all your fault lah,foosiewting.
SLAPPPPPPSSSS.hahh.my daily slaps(x
okay lah.ive got to be serious and stop crapping.
siewting ah.i seriously think that you're a potential psychologist you know?
you're always able to read my mind and figure out how im feeling when i was even unsure of myself.
it's a little scary sumtimes,when i cum to think about it.
but i have to admit that you've been giving me great help all these times.
thanks for your support and encouragement when i was confused and down.
thanks for your understanding and thanks for always being able to look thru my troubles even without me telling you.
thanks for giving me a pat on the back when i was really stressed up during the exam period.
thanks for always attempting to dry my tears.
YOU ROCK! (:
lol.and also..i will never forget our most spastic moments during practicals in the science labs.
HAHAH.
SEWTING IS SPASTIC!

i shall stop here for the moment.
will continue this list tmr(:
my eyes are painful. seeyah.

2006-11-03T07:19:00.000-08:00

http://lost-within-dreams.blogspot.com
okayy.just wanna help siewting to advertise her newly-created blog.
i must say tat the words are urmm,small.
frankly speaking,i was like straining my eyes while reading.
no offence =X but siewting's english is way above my standard lah.
*looks above* AHH.i see siewting!>.<
i just spammed her tagboard.LOLS.

well,back to some serious stuff.
im seriously developing hatred against my hair,day by day.
every morning as i brush my teeth and look into the mirror..
omg.my hair is like, wow.messed up.
i wished i could turn back time and NOT step into that salon tat day.
sighhhs.my life's screwed.
the holidays have officially begun after the olvls on monday.
but hmm.how should i put it.
im not in the mood to play.
i mean my mind's just not on the right 'track' this few days.
have been thinking about many many other stuff that will seriously make tears fall.
but yup.ive learnt to hold back tears and stay strong.
im definitely not gonna let anyone be affected my negative thoughts and feelings.
esp those who have been playing an important in my life(:

i suppose tat there arent many activities going on during the holidays,for me in particular.
well,what can i say?
im BORED.extremely bored.
and im officially broke too.hah.
have been spending quite alot ever since the exams ended in october.
went to seoul garden with mandice,and tat reminds me tat i still owe her 3bucks=/
went kbox twice.godd.tats qte a huge sum of money spent you know.
all the fast food that fills my stomach and also not forgetting the neos that ive been taking so far. that really explains why my pocket has a hole right now..
and coming to think that my sis birthday is on this sunday?
omg.i really cant fork out the money to buy a gift for her.
jie.im sorry yah=X

i dunno how to drag this post any longer.
hah.nothing much occurred during the past few days.
life has been quite plain and hmm.dumb.
BOOS.i dun like it.
but i needa to cherish the boredom before school reopens nxt year again.
two months time,which seems long.
but you'd never know how fast time flies yah?
im not looking forward to next year.not at all looking forward to the olvls.
haishh.
year 2006 is gonna to cum to an end real soon.
and not long after this,i'll be doing a reflection here,typing a long post on how exactly ive been feeling throught this long,yet seemingly short year.
i must say tat it has been a meaningful yr for me.
went through alot and yup.learnt to be stronger(:
realised that ive got many great friends around me.
and of course,their consoles which really matter.
awwws* thanks(:

-zhi yao xiao yi xiao,mei shen me shi qing guo bu liao.
weixiao pasta is NICEE(x
looking forward to the last epi tat is gonna be out soon.hahah.
seeyah guys then.with my reflection of the year(:
it would most probably be an emotional one..
buhbyes(:

2006-10-30T05:46:00.000-08:00

had chinese olvl today.
what can i say?
i screwed it up.
the paper one topics just made me stare into space.
and paper two,im just speechless.
evryone finds the paper managable,or rather easy?
but i seriously find it difficult,and think tat it's a little impossible to get an a1.
i just cant seem to concentrate throughout the whole exam.
was i thinking abt sum other stuff? or rather,im just plain lazy?
i really do not know=/

had a haircut today after going out with sheryl and siewting.
we managed to get a birthday present for sheryl in the end,after a long and tiring walk round bugis street and bugis junction itself.
oh yah.back to the topic,my hair.
it's awful,seriously ur-hums,jian bu de ren.
i thought it was alright at first.
but after a bath,i realised tat i was wrong.
my hair is in a mess.TOTAL mess.
short,layered(i wld say very layered) and MESSY.
whatever.why do i always get a bad haircut every year?
as in this seems to be a yearly routine for me.
and i swear tat i wun let anyone see myself letting down my hair.
that's a NO.i look d i s g u s t i n g.
oh well.i must look at the positive side of life.
my hair is gonna grow.yup.it DEFINITELY going to.
i cant bear to look into the mirror rite now.
seriously hoping that evrythg that's happening now,is just a dream.
but well,im afraid that's nearly impossible huh.
gansherli,please accept the fact.
your hair sucks totally..=/
HAH.anyway im kind of looking forward to the next few days of our holidays.
will be accompanying two shorties =X to go to kbox tmr!(:
and yup.movie marathon at mryeow's hse on weds (x
and..bio lessons on thurs.hah.nice one.
but well,there's still 12,i mean TWELVE zuowens waiting to be done.
the school's mad.
shall end here.im off to watch weixiao pasta(:
seeyah.

2006-10-23T03:47:00.000-07:00

im sorry if my previous post contains some biasness towards him.
but as a friend,i really do hope that thgs can turn out well for him.
yups.really no offence to anyone in 3h(:

the previous post was seriously an emotional one.
too many things were occupying my mind at tat time,that it made me type in such a manner.
well,i have sumhow thought things over.
and apparently,i should feel really blessed and satisfied with wat i have now.
it's going to be 'leaving' in a weeks time,which is what i really dread abt.
but looking at the brighter side of it,it's going to be back in a year's time.
a year seems long and i really cant predict how life would be like for me.
but im sure that everything will be back to place agn after that.
just hoping that things will turn out well somehow..

the olvls are in about 7 days time.
just a note to you guys out there-
rmb to take good care of yourselves yah?
it's definitely not worth to fall sick at this time.
all the best and JIAYOUS((:

sorry if i created sum confusion in you guys from wat ive typed above.
shall type a longer post the next time.yup(:

2006-10-20T04:45:00.000-07:00

i've got mixed feelings about what has been going on with my life recently.
but seriously,your tears and sorrows are definitely not gonna change a single thing.
i must admit that accepting reality is easier said than done.
though im not a christian,but i do hope that God can really grant me the strength to overcome the current situation.
as for the chinese olvl paper that is coming in a week's time,i do hope that You can grant everyone,esp the people in 3h,the wisdom to do well.
i would like to see us staying as a class again next year.
so people,let's work hard and strive tgt yah?
it would be the last paper for the year,and also the most important one.
do remember to give your best and yup.the 3h's spirit will always be there(:

i was blogsurfing some hours before this and, it happened that i found a post in 3h's blog.
i must say that i really agree to the words that she had said.
To me, I think it's because they don't interact with them, and thus don't know and don't see who they really are. In this world, everyone WOULDN'T like everyone.
i personally think that what she has said was very true.
not everyone is that 'open-hearted' to like everyone that he or she face in life.
but i believe that if one is willing to interact and communicate with the person that he or she is against with,things are most likely gonna change for the better.
a great example would be the class' relationship with the chinese scholars.
we used to be against them and would always talk bad about them.
but the changing of seating arrangement has clearly shown the change in our relationship.
we have learnt to accept one another.
it's all a matter of the willingness to interact with one another.
i guess you guys will know what im talking about.
i mean,please try putting yourself in his shoes.
how would you actually feel if you're being left out by evryone in the class?
you may choose to think that it was his decision to stay away from the class.
but again,that's what you think.
you're not aware of what was going on in his mind at that moment of time.
please dun think that im biased as im his friend.
i have to admit that he is harsh with his words at times.
but think it in another way,would you guys accept him if he had not said those words?
you may say yes,but it may not be what he has been thinking all along.
i guess we really have to sit down and talk things out tgt.
only then will the problem be solved.
and only then, we'll finally be tgt as a class,and not leaving anyone out.
yup.im not sure if everyone will agree to what ive said.
im not sure if anyone wld start hating me for posting my views.
but i do hope that you guys can really remove the hatred and instead, looking at things in another point of view yah?
it's definitely easier to accept than to hate someone.

lastly i would like to wish the secfours good luck for the coming olvls.
today's your last day in ahs.
be it the president and vice-president of the student council who have contributed much to the school, or the secfour seniors in our cca, thanks for what you have done for us(:
esp the sec four seniors in [ac]2.
a big THANKYOU to you guys.
you've been a great batch of seniors(:
jiayous and all the best in yah future endeavours.

thanks to God
thanks to God for all your blessings
thanks for all that you provide
thanks for times now but a memory
thanks for being by our side
thanks for pleasant thoughts of school life
thanks for every happy day
thanks for students and all teachers
thanks for showing us your way

thanks for prayers that you have answered
thanks for what you may deny
thanks for storms that we have weathered
thanks for what you do supply
thanks for friends and thanks for laughter
thanks for comfort in despair
thanks for grace that none can measure
thanks for love beyond compare

thanks for roses by the wayside
thanks for thorns their stems contain
thanks for home and thanks for parents
thanks for daily sun and rain
thanks for joy and thanks for sorrow
thanks for everybody here
thanks for hope today tomorrow
thanks for our heritage

Father And Mother I Love You
i truly mean what i say.

2006-10-14T07:26:00.000-07:00

some things just dun turn out to be they way you want them to be.
unexpected and unpredictable.
never in my life did i expect things to turn out this way.
never did i expect such a major change to take place in my life.
and now.i guess accepting reality is the only route left.
and NOTHING else.

sigghhhs.im seriously not in the mood to type anything at the moment.
there are just too many things going on in my head and i just cant refrain myself from all the pessimistic thoughts.
worries abt my results.worries abt my own life.
this sucks totally =/
it is now then i realised the importance of keeping yourself occupied with books and studying.
as tats the only period when you wun think abt other stuff tat you know,are gonna bother you VERY much.
but i guess ppl wld think tat im mad if i start studying now?
well.tat does not seem to link sumhow.
this post is just a crappy one,and is definitely not making any sense.
no one wld acty understand wat the hell am i talking abt.

a chance to vent my frustration bah,i guess.
im sorry if i make you guys confused..
im just FREAKIN ughh.speechlees.
whatever! free my mind,can i?

2006-10-11T07:56:00.000-07:00

heyys.im here to keep my blog alive(x
have been mugging really hard for the exams for the past few weeks.
and im finally here to declare tat..
THE EXMAS ARE OFFICALLY OVER :D
yay! and tat gives me the reason to slack for the next few days,before i acty start working for the cuming olvl chinese ppr.
30 oct 2006,if im not mistaken.scary huh..
brief remarks abt the exams..
well,it was way too HORRIBLE.
could somehow sense tat evryone was extremely stressed abt the idea of the bridging programme.
and coming to think tat ive got absolutely zero confidence on all the subjects...
haiix.i seriously dun expect much,but just hoping tat my results dun go way down my expectations :(
will my hard work go down the drain?
or am i not working hard enough?
sighhs.i just cant help thinking.

anyway,today was kind of a loong day for me.
finished our last ppr at ard 10plus, before we were dismissed.
so siewting and i set off to junction8 to have a look out(:
it was our first time there.and seriously,i was expecting more than wat i actually saw.
the place looked old and well,there arent many shops.
the whole place just didnt seem to attract me.
so,we went to marina sq to kill our time,before going to marina bay for the class steamboat.
we decided to catch a movie at 1450, which was kind of a last minute decison.
BAO BEI JI HUA .. the ROB-B-HOOD(:
it was a great show!
and yup.im starting to fa hua-chi again.
gutianle is freakin shuai(x
i din expect the movie to turn out tat interesting and touching actually.
to be honest,i was laughing my ass out throughout the whole movie.
there were also some touching scenes which drove me to tears.
that was one of the many movies which gave me a real deep impression.
it's worth my 7bucks(:
im encouraging you guys to catch this great movie yah?
actually,frankly speaking,i dun mind watch it another time.lols:D

the steamboat after that was FUN.
although i din really liked the service there, as there was no water provided.
and they actually sold one canned drink for $1.80?!
tats like damn expensive can?
but overall, i din eat much,as i wasnt in the mood to do so,due to sum other stuff.
furthermore,the food isnt exactly tat nice.
i sound picky=/
but i think mryeow was kind of surprised when he saw chuanyun coming out with a birthday cake in her hands yah?
and the whole class started singing a birthday song,as the candle glowed.
awwww.it was a rather touching scene(:
took sum class photos after tat which i think,will be posted on the class blog tmr.
oh well.im feeling tired after a whole day outside.
to end off my post,i just wanna say..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MRYEOW
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAMANTHA
and to mryeow,i just want to say tat..
im not sure what would it be like if i chose to stay in 3L from the beggining.
but as for now,ive got absolutely no regrets coming to 3H.
yup.thanks for the encouraging note tat you gave to evryone before the exams.
and great thanks for wat you have done for the class.
YOU ROCK:D
happy marking our pprs :/
and please, dun eat peanut butter.LOL xD

2006-09-22T00:15:00.000-07:00

you guys might be wondering wat am i doing here,when evryone else are probably busy mugging for exams right now.
time's running out.TWELVE more days.
everyone just seems to be counting down.
and as what the people ard me have been complaining about,the stress level this year is just so much higher than before.
and yup,i totally agree to this.
i must say tat 3h's god damn hardworking.
just look at the number of ppl who sacrificed their recess for the bio test held during the next period,you wld definitely understand what i mean.
ive to admit tat this week was the worst week ever for me,in particular.
i seemed to have screwed up all the tests n physics spa this week.
mugging really hard,the shedding of tears and disppointments.
well,tats enough.i know tat ive gone beyond my limits,which therefore explains why im here to give myself a break.
yup.just want to thank those people who have given me the support from time to time when i was under some kind of break down.
thanks for ya consoles,esp siewting and pris.
it's time i shld learn how to be strong and take things easy.
as for now,im gonna MUG extremely,horribly HARD for the sake of eoy.
and i belive that evryone definitely has the potential to do well.
have faith and determination ya?
all the best.jiayous(:

2006-09-09T07:32:00.000-07:00

one more day,and the sept holidays are coming to an end.
im seriously against the re-opening of school :(
first of all,three more weeks to end-of-year,which definitely ISNT a short period of time.
three weeks- 21 days =/
i bet i'll be dead,especially with the hectic exam time-table,which was much worse than before.
ARGGH.and come to think tat teachers are not done with their teachings...
well,it just makes me freak out.
i cant imagine how they're gonna rush through and how on earth are we gonna absorb.
i hate the person who came up with the idea of exmas.
although it's a great way to test on how much we've learnt,but it's creating so much stress in evryone.including the teachers.
BOOS x(
im praying seriously hard tat i'll get through all this.

tat isnt a good way to start my post huh.
but exams seem to be the first thg tat comes to my mind nowadays.
counting down the number of days,how many more chpts to go..etc.
it's just hinders too much tat i'll go absolutely crazy sumtimes=/
i shall end here cos hmm..really gt nth much to say.
jiayous and mugg hard everyone!(:

im looking forward to see siewting's new hairstyle on monday(x
heh. cya!(:

2006-09-06T19:02:00.000-07:00

i dunno wat on earth has gotten into me recently.
a holiday does not seem to be a holiday to me anymore.
i somehow just cant rest peacefully or watch a tv programme in a relaxing manner.
my brain just keeps reminding me tat ive got to get back to my books and start studying.
and all these countless reminders are just driving me crazy at times.
evrytime i choose to give myself a short break,i'll start to feel a sense of guilt overcoming me.
my brain seemed to be nagging at me,saying "you aint supposed to be here.you shld be studying rite now.."
i seriously dunno why such a dumb feeling is pestering me nowadays.
when i attained good results,i dun feel a sense of achievement at all.
i just claimed myself to be lucky and think tat such luck will not be by my side for long.
the results seemed fake in my eyes.
and i just dun seem to understand WHY.
im aware tat studying non-stop is not doing any good to me.
im aware tat there's something wrong with me.
im aware tat im on the road to depression or sumthg else that's bad.
but.wat on earth can i do?
slap myself?force myself to stop thinking?
i just want to be the old me.

haix.i shant let the post end tis way even though im not in the right mood now.
anyway,talking about today,i went out for group studying with pris and mandice at changi aiport.
the environment wasnt exactly quiet due to many people dining over there.
yup.we werent the only ones who studied there actually.
there were many others doing tat too.
and we saw cherie and junru,which was kind of a surprise to me(:
great effort was put in as we tried to concentrate reading our bio.
but in some way or another,there was still some gossiping here and there.
a rather fun experience actually,although i only managed to cover the chpt on excretion.
got kind of mixed up with the osmoregulation part,but mandice helped to clear my doubts.
yup.the whole thing ended at around 4plus.
and mandice and i took mrt back,while pris' parents came to pick her.lucky duck.
there wasnt much conversation gg on in the train between mandice and i.
was it because we're busy reading our txtbks,or rather, we din hav anything to talk abt?
i dunno.somehow,i just think tat we're drifting apart and tis friendship doesnt matter tat much to you anymore.
mayb it's due to the fact tat you've got other friends who are much closer to you.
or maybe, it's due to the fact tat we're not sitting with each other anymore.
or maybe, it's because you've shifted and we're unable to go out tat often.
but seriously,i think tis friendship which i used to treasure, is gonna end sumhow.
i truly missed those days when we can go out together to buy bubble tea at the weirdest time of the day.
i truly missed those days when we can chat on the phone for hours without getting tired.
but now,although such thing aint happening,you're still a friend whom i once treasured.
thanks for the unforgettable friendship(:
YUP.im getting way too emotional,i guess.
anyway,im gg out with binghao and eunice tmr.
hope tat i could give myself a break and really have fun.
tats all for now(:

2006-09-03T21:30:00.000-07:00

im back after a tiring yet FUN weekend! :D
you wld not imagine how much ive went thru these three days!(x
LOL.the chalet,the trip to city hall to purchase mandice's birthday present and last of all FLAG DAY!
apparently,im more enthusiastic towards the chalet which happened two days ago.
so yup.a warning to those out there.
this is gonna be an extremely looonnngg post.
i suggest tat u shld jus look thru the pictures if you're easily bored with thgs tat are really draggy.
:D so yep.here i go.

friday.01sept
it's teachers' day as you all know:D
i want to express my gratitude to all the teachers who have tolerated with my sotong-ness.
hehh.i love you all xD
oh yah.anyway,it was also the day when mryeow organised a chalet for 3H,at national service resort country club [nsrcc].
fantastic place indeed(:
the bungalow was big and two storeys high,which was just enough to acommodate the whole class.
yup.so the whole class took a free shuttle bus to the place.
upon reaching our destination,a group of ppl went off to an area to finish decorating the HUGE card tat we're gonna give to mryeow.
and we(pris,siqing,siewting,mandice n xinyi) are then asked to find mryeow and also to make sure tat he doesnt walk to the area tat they were in.
so,we found mr&mrs yeow having a meal at an unknown cafe and he made a short introduction of us to mrsyeow,as we started walking off in a particular direction.
mryeow saw thru our plan in the end=/
so yah.the others finally came with the huge card in their hands and also,a plastic bag which was filled with many different brands of coffee(:
i bet mryeow was touched cos i,myself liked the card very much.
esp the class photo tat was pasted at the back..NICE!(x

a picture of the card!(:

after we've left our stuff in the room,almost half of us went out to the sea to have sum fun.
as jessica could not go,sum of them,tgt with mryeow stayed back to accompany her in chalet.
but mandice and i felt kinda guilty after tat and so we decided to make our back.
yup.so i decided to take a picture before leaving,as the others decided to go to east coast to play.

tats baowen,hanlu,chuanyun and minghui walking in a line.

i guess tat they were unaware of tis.
had fun in the chalet playing cards and watching ppl dancing.
here's sum random pictures tat i have tou pai-ed(x

our legs!xD

luhuan and zhising,edison fixing.

mandice's 'creation'.she spilled the ribena=.=

mryeow and jessica dancing.rather amusing.LOL!

overview of our chalet.tats pris!hehh.

after tat we decided to have a short walk ard the whole place and have a look-out at the facilities.so again,sum random pics.
im too lazy to type=X

biggg place for bowling huh.

me and siewting!xD

kawaii x)

there was a huge surprise for the september babies after we've had the bbq!
mryeow actually bought a yummy chocolate cake to celeberate as a class.
unexpected huh.

the sept babies!bainan,chuanyun,baowen,mandice n sheryl.

bainan cutting the cake:D

the outcome=/

LOL.im having so much fun posting the pics.
many ppl went back after 10plus and in the end,only those who were staying over were left behind.
we ate cup noodles tgt and soon after tat,the mahjong started.
as siewting,sheryl and i had abolutely zero knowledge of the game,we decided to a heart-to-heart talk among ourselves and entertain ourselves my taking sum pics.
oh yeahh.we also drank sum coffee to wake ourselves up.
nescafe is nice!

siewting and me!

the ever so cute sheryl(:

mryeow,minghui,chuanyun n baowen playing mahjong.

mryeow's in his specs. looked studious huh?
anyway.tats all for chalet for now.
we had so much fun as a class!
and i shall nvr forget the nite when i struggled to make myself stay awake till 4.30am.
i love 3H(:

anyway flag day was really meaningful today.
i finally understood the feeling of being ignored=/
a smile really does matter even if you're nt helping.
at least i feel tat my effort is worthwhile.
conserve the wildlife(:
donate to the zoo and save the animals!
LOLS.weird organasation but i really enjoyed myself tgt with pris,standing outside whitesands and asking ppl for donations.
i hope tat the animals wld be able to know how much we've done for them.
my back ached after standing for hours:(
i shall stop here then.i can feel tat ive typed a reallllyyy long post.
lalala(x
gonna be tied down at home for the next few days.
have to start working on my homework and also,start mugging for the upcumin eoy which is approaching in a month's time.
HAIX.time really flies.
byee(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MANDICE:D

2006-08-31T07:47:00.000-07:00

IT'S OVER! :D
oh well,in fact eoy isnt over yet.
but im just glad tat paper one is finally cleared.
and i can rest assured tat sng and huanglaoshi wld not be giving us any compos to do for the time being(:
the paper was rather okay,i guess,although the topics given were kinda boring.
as in,they were really boring.
i stared at the topics for like a total of 5mins before sumthg cld actually reach my mind.
and tat mental block sumhow applied for both english and chinese.
but,at least an essay was written out eventually(:
i feel relieved :D

was supposed to visit my primary sch today,tgt with hanlu and athena.
but we felt qte restless after the exmas ended and wanted to hang out with frens instead.
so we decided to give up on tat idea,and went out with our own plans.
and tats how i ended up with a grp of frens,running in the rain as we made our way to tanah merah mrt station.
we were drenched,despite the fact tat we're 'sheltered' by the umbrellas we had.
LOL.im laughing while typing tis retarded post.
dun ask me why =X

so as we're on our way to tm,we started discussing abt wat to eat.
i came up with the idea of gg to pizza to have our lunch!
at first,pris was kinda reluctant.
but after mandice and i decided to pay for her share,as a belated birthday treat, she finally agreed to the idea.
so we ended up queueing outside pizza hut,waiting for our turn to get in.
the place was like flooded with many ppl.
teachers' day seemed to be a gathering for the students,instead of the teachers=/
kinda weird huh?
anyway,we had a great lunch in pizza hut and evryone ended up bloated,except for mandice.
she's indeed a big-eater, a person hu has exceptionally high metabolism rate.LOL xD
and yunrong was just the reverse of her =X

i dun seem to have the mood to carry on with tis post.
my stomach has been growling evr since i came home after tution.
the pizza was the last meal i had today.
and tmr,there'd be chalet!and im staying over!(:
whooo.so highh.wonder wat it wld be like in the nite..
LOL.im so looking forward =D
although tis weekend wld be a busy one for me,but im definitely looking forward to all the fun tat im gonna have.
nxt mon wld be mandice's birthday and we're gonna buy her a present on sat!
which means, a whole day wld be spent shopping for her present.
and sunday wld be flag day for us!
although it will be doing charity for the zoo,which sounds a little dumb,but im still looking forward to it sumhow.
moreover,it's my first tym doing such activity and i really wonder how it wld be like.
LOL.tis just makes me more excited.
im just gonna give myself a short break from my studies and play really hard during tis weekend.
im definitely gonna make myself enjoy!(x

anyway,anglican high broke the guiness world record two days ago.
im proud,and i believe tat the whole school is proud.
300806. a day to remember.
anglican high will be down in history!(;

lols.i can sense the enthusiasm in me.
shall be back to post sum other time abt class chalet and flag day.
yupyup.as for now,i needa pack my thgs and get sum sleep(:
nites evryone!:D
and not forgetting,to all teachers out there,
A HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY! :D

2006-08-27T05:38:00.000-07:00

supposed to cum online to relax for a little while.
but end up,ive gt no place to go.
so yah.i ended up here again,just to kill boredom by typing a short post.
i just realised tat by practising maths for the whole day, it's enough to take away half of your life.
LOL.tis sounds a little exaggerating.but im serious okay!
i dunno how much brain power ive used up today.
wondering if there's any brain juice left for tmr's test.=/
anyway,ive got no idea on wat to post.
but siewting says she want me to post..so hmm.i shant disappoint tis little innocent girl bah.
LOL.and i got a feeling tat she's spamming our conversation now.
see?i can guess really well(x

let me think of wat to say.
HMMM.
hey!if my mind happens to go blank during my paper one,im gonna be so dead.
uggghh.nvm.im looking on the brighter side of life.
lalalalala((:
ohyahh.talking abt my previous post.
i wanted to mention sumthg rather important actually.
but apparently,i forgot abt it due to my short term memory level [stml].
HEHH.rmb me saying tat my ex formteacher said tat ive changed alot?
i was thinking whether it's my appearance or character tat has changed,when i heard tat particular remark or hers.
ohwellls.im unsure of myself anyway.
how wld you know tat you've changed,when u see urself in the mirror evryday.
i dun think u wld ever look into the mirror and say,
"hey! is tat u today?"
tats like totally an absurd thg to do.
lol.anyway,out of topic.
i shall go check out wat on earth is going on with the conv tat im having with siewting.
it jus cant stop blinking.

okay.it was just sum self-entertaining going on.
LOL.
anyway,so i questioned hanlu as i went back tgt with her after our visit to evps.
was the change really so great tat i couldnt even be recognised?
and she gave me a weird answer.
she said tat there was really a great change in me.and she emphasised on the word 'great'.
she claimed tat ive turned frm one who rarely speaks,into a person who has a very highhh personality.
woow.i din realise tat.
loll.anyway.tats jus sum random facts abt gansherli.
split personality.or is it change in character,due to sum crazy frens ard her,like the one she's talking to now..FOOSIEWTING?
lol.okay lah.
i think tis has turned out to be a long post again.
buhbye then!
shall update more often next time.
i hope tat it will be a happy one.

jiayous for paper one ppl!
gogogo(x

2006-08-25T05:45:00.000-07:00

warning: this is gonna be a long post!

long time evr since ive updated tis blog.
yup.and now i hereby pronounce tat
IVE CHANGED A NEW BLOGSKIN!
designed by the evr so pro siexinyi(x
lol.thanks alot gurl.
you've got great talent at such stuff,unlike me.
im pathetic.

it has been a long and tiring week.
and once again, im here to post!
countless things happened during the past few days in school.
we got back many tests results.
let me count.
emaths,2 amaths,bio,ss,physics,chem.
huge blow to me :(
and yar.its also the week when the whole class starts to hate her.
i shall not specify who's tat particular person :/
and also,its the week when we took our class photo!
exciting hur(:

stolen frm 3h's blog xD

let me emphasise what happened today.
25.08 friday.
the day started with english.
and the topic tat she discussed today was just full of sacarsm.
you shld show respect to ppl who has a higher authority than you.
watevr.cant you just come straight to the point?
why shld we show respect to a teacher who doesnt want to say a word of apology,but instead,making up excuses for herself,and claiming tat she's right?
urrghh.i just so hate her and i bet the whole class wld share the same thought as me.
anyway.physics was next.
and tat 'cute',plump mrchua came in with our test papers.
but it ended up tat many ppl went up to him to ask for marks.
he's jus a person who only follows wat the txtbk states.
and once again for tat, we were really pissed.
as he was just so reluctant to give us the marks,when he was supposed to.
2 periods of chinese was next.
and we're once again forced to write an essay within two periods.
dry dry topics which doesnt inspire me at all to write.
but again,we had to practise for the upcoming paper which is nxt thurs.
time flies :/
the day ended with maths,which was wat evryone was looking forward to as it was the last period.
learnt sum confusing trigo stuff which really made my head spin.
and yup.we got back our amaths paper.
my marks aren't tat fantastic tis time round.
and sad to say,i wasnt satisfied.
it kinda bring my mood down after tat.

however, my supposedly sad mood was diminished after a trip to a wonderful place for a motivational talk.
and tat is the one and only - east view primary school.
the school which i spent 6yrs of my studying life in.
the school where i met great teachers and friends.
and also,not forgetting tat it's the place where i grew up frm a small,innocent 7-year-old primaryone kid to a grown-up 12-year-old student.
okay.im just getting too emotional.lols.
so,hmm back to the point.
hanlu,athena,guoxiang and i made our trip to evps after we were dismissed frm school.
which means tat we get to skip cca!LOL.
so we went dwn to the staff rm after dismissal as guoxiang wanted to hand in the excuse letters to his teacher i/c.
we met ccp outside the staffroom and he offered to drive us there o.O
but for some unknown reasons, he disappeared for a period of 15mins or so.
and hanlu was like trying to to contact him thru his hp as we wanted to go there ourselves.
you know,it feels kinda weird sitting in a dm's car hur.
so we walked to the mrt station and set off to tampines.
just as we alighted and walked down the stairs,we had tis sudden thot of buying bubble tea.
so we made our way to sweet-talk and each bought ourselves a cup of bubble tea.
and for your information,the person took FOREVER to just make two cups of oreo chocolate.
and guess wat?by the tym we reached the bus interchange,ccp had already arrived at evps!LOL.
and it was a lucky thg tat the bus came just in time when we recvd a call frm ccp.
it was rather a short journey to evps while hanlu was all so nervous in the bus,as she was worried abt the speech tat she's going to make after tat.
so yah.we finally alighted.
and guess wat?i laughed like mad upon seeing sumthg really absurd.
tis was wat we saw..

LOL!

it was really fun and exciting as we looked at the posters hanged on the fences, on our journey there.
honestly,it has been a long time evr since i went back.
a total of 2yrs i think.LOL.
the moment i stepped into the school and walked on the pebble-path,i just got tis very exciting and homely feeling rushing into me.
tis school hasnt changed a single bit!
the murals,the canteen,the staircases were all the same.

anyway,we finally reached the place whr we saw many other secondary school ppl,like ngee ann,tkgs,etc gathered over there.
and ms stephanie yong,came in telling us tat we're late, in a real sarcarstic manner.
the ngee ann ppl came at TWOo'clock and wat abt you?
she emphasised on the word TWO so much tat we looked at each other in guilt.
watevr.msyong was still as ap as ever x(
anyway.the p6 pupils came in not long after tat, and all the different sec schools were then introduced to them.
and i saw mslim(my p6 form teacher)! or rather madamlim,as she's married.
but sadly,she couldnt recognise me but recognised athena first.
she claimed tat i changed alot?hah=/
so yah.the motivational talk began as the ngeeann students started with their loooooonnngg talk.
and most unexpectedly,they acty prepared souveniers for the p6 pupils!
and we had nothing.
so ccp tried to come out with a speech abt ahs so as to promote our sch to them.
we even had a dvd on our sch!but it couldnt be played due to sum technical probs.
so yah.evrythg seemed to be a failure in the end as the students start to get bored with our speeches.
but the interaction after tat went qte well as athena and i tried to communicate with the p6 students.
we tried to provide them with sum studying tips and also giving them a rough idea on wat secondary school life is all abt.
and lastly, REFRESHEMENT!
but the food was pathetic.
and all i had was just sum orange juice and cakes that apparently din fill me up.
but i had a great tym talking to mrs geraldine lee after tat!
we complained abt the stress we had in our school work.
and yah.she did symphatise us(:
after a long chat,we went round the school to have a look-out as gouxiang left.
yup.so together with ziyang,we had a walk ard and talked pretty much xD
it was then we had another longgg chat with mrsberger.
we talked abt how tis sch had become evr since we left.
and she claimed tat we were one of the greatest batch!LOL.
i do feel proud upon hearing tat remark(x
anyway,hanlu and i took sum pics of sum murals in our sch.
and yup here it is!

i love east view primary!
and im definitely proud to be an ex-evpian!
LOL xD

next week's schedule:
mon-emaths CT
tues-english recount test
THURS- EOY PAPER ONE!

2006-08-22T02:39:00.000-07:00

The Click Five - Time Machine

Oh what mess
you've got the best of my heart
It broke and now it's just a joke
Cause you're moving right along
I'm still here and you're gone
Oh what shame
You know I didnt mean for the winds to change
Won't ever be the same
Cause the kisses that you blew
Could never ever move
I think I need some time by myself
Without anybody else
I just need to unwind
In my time machine
I need to go far away
A few years back would be ok
I just need to unwind
In my time machine
Hey you
Ya i'm talking to you
You lost the love in bed
And now it's just dead
Cause it didn't mean a thing
Waiting for a ring
Hey it's a game
And ain't it a shame that it's just a show
I thought that this was love
But I can't be fooled again
I'm cryin' out
But I can't give in
I think you need some time by yourself
Without anybody else
You just need to unwind
In your time machine
You need to go far away
A few years back would be ok
You just need to unwind
In your time machine

All the things that we could change(things that we could change)
Now we'll never be the same
I think I need some time by myself
Without anybody else
I just need to unwind
In my time machine
I need to go far away
A few years back would be ok
I just need to unwind
In my time machine
By Myself
I don't need anybody else
I just need to unwind
In my time machine
In my time machine

2006-08-18T20:20:00.000-07:00

second post for the day.
and i want to apologise for the complicated post below.
i bet no one can actually figure out who's talking.
and also,im sorry for the insults too.
i know tat im not in the position to insult any teachers with my slacking attitude.
im sorry.i went too high just now with the presence of two crazy friends who budged in all of a sudden when i was typing my post.
but i have to admit tat i had fun just now=X
okay.tat sounds very contradicting sumhow.

anyway.im really glad tat i survived thru tis terrible week.
hah.i do share the same throughts as baowen(:
tis week has been packed with three tests.
emaths,physics and chemistry.
i have been staying up until 12am evry nite for the past four days, trying to memorise all the stuff from the textbooks.
and im actually supposed to hand in my book review today.(sorry binghao)
i tried reading at least 20 pages of my book evry nite so tat i wld be able to complete the book review.
but with my packed schedule and tuitions going on,i wasnt able to do so.
well, at least i tried.
i promise tat i will complete it by tis weekend(:
im motivated to really start improving my english.
because i failed my english test for the first time.
it's really depressing and disappointing.
and also,my geography results arent tat fantastic either.
but once again,
IM GLAD TAT ITS FRIDAY!
im tired but feeling relieved at the same time(:

there had been ups and down recntly.mood swings..
hmm.or maybe im just tired of life,tired of studying.
thinking tat life's unfair and all tat kind of depressing stuff.
i have to admit tat im a little pessimistic.
i dun believe in myself and always lacked of confidence in doing well.
maybe i shall learn to accept life as it is.
be optimistic :D tats the word.
there are many unfortunate ppl ard me who are undergoing a more difficult life.
but yet, they can live happily and stay positive.
so yup.STAY HAPPY evryone!
i know tat sumtimes its difficult to put up a smile when you're down.
but hey! you may not know tat there are ppl ard you who are falling for the lovely smile of yours!
a smile do matters((((:

wat a motivating post.LOL.
jiayous ppl and keep the spirit yah?
all we need is just a little faith:D

the weekend is once again packed with hmwrk.
eng essay and book review.
there wld be an amaths common test and english test nxt week.
MUG HARD - tats all i can say for now.

keeping the FAITH;

2006-08-18T16:49:00.000-07:00

have been stucked in this 'create post' page for hrs.
current location: summer concerto((:
and again,im here slacking in cca.
tat seems to be a weekly routine for me =/
have been talking to tis small junior(who shall not be named) who has been sexually harrassed by tis teacher some minutes ago.
shant elaborate more on the details.but she's SICK.
honestly,i dun like her.and (i dont like her also!! blehh so bad BUT BLEHH><)(and i dont like her too!)
okay.the ones in brackets are opinions of eunice n steph.
ANYWAY,
she's like one fat person walking ard the lab to check whether we are doing our 'work'.
and she asks dumb questions.
like"where's your stryboard?"
when she knows tat DUH.we're slacking?
oh well.i sound bad.LOLS.

shes bloody fat la then wear the jeans so low can see her fats. she think so nice ah. you see sherli so miao tiao not so bitchy as her..sorry la. i very mean.
-stephanie

stephanie's mad.( u also mad. sherli started talking abt her in the first place.)
okayokay.but shes really sick lah.slap sumone's ASS? =/( yah lor she confirm will become a professional child molestor when she is 30 yrs old.she just exposedherselfagain!!!!!!!!!)
LOL.we're mean!but i dun care.
why wld a fat person wear such a tight-fitting blouse?and reveal her FATS?!
(yea man)
okay.enuf of the gossiping.sounds so drama.
and eunice is combing her hair in front of me.hahah.tats random.
but she looks so seductive.
(she just did a lapdance on sherli)
eunice's zilian-ed and she's dancing??!!
gosh.wat has happened to her?is tat EUNICE SHI?)
(**yes BABY?!? ^^ )

LOLL xD
tat was just a small conversation by stephanie,eunice and i.
sounds dumb.but try figuring out who's acty typing yah?
"can she pull her jeans up more?" s just exclaimed.
LOL.
SLAP HER ASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!HAHAHAHAHHAHA
no PUSH lar ^^
no kick her fats
No just throw her into a toilet bowlll

ehh but i think she cannot fit

TATS NOT TYPED BY ME.
not me also.^^ I RAWK
not me either.. i rock too. we rock

she type herself.. hiahh.. so low confidence..
wat the hell? not me can?
only you can hav such 'wonderful' imagination huh?throw her into the toilet bowl?=/

lets change the topic.
enough of the gossiping.she mite jus walk past and see tis.
HAH.but sumhow,im not in the mood to type now.
shall post later or tmr then(:
im high..

2006-08-09T05:47:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!
ive decided to type out a post for tis very special occasion tat is definitely meaningful to every singaporean out dere(:
i must say tat the ndp performance was great!
the lights,decorations,dances n march parade was awesome.
really enjoyed the whole parade very much.
altho it was watched thru the tv,i could feel the excitement sumhow.
the planes flying past which was way loud..
n also,the helicopters.WOW.
i just love the wonderful sight frm my window.
its really a blessing to stay near the national stadium((:
it is sad tat it wld be the last time for the ndp to be held in the most historical place- the national stadium.
i cant bear to see it being demolished.
ive always loved watching ndp in the national stadium.
where thousands of singaporeans gather in this warm n cosy area n celebrate together,waving their singapore flags n singing in unity.
but as wat ppl said,
jiu de bu qu,xin de bu lai.
yup.am i getting way too emotional or sumthg?
im typing tis post while the national songs are being played on my labtop.
LOL.you may think tat ive gone mad.
but..i cant deny tat i do LOVE SINGAPORE,my home^^
and also,not forgetting abt the wonderful fireworks,which was wat i was looking forward to throughout the whole performance.
beautiful sight indeed(x
but when i wanted to capture it with my camera,it stopped.
okay fine.but at least i get to enjoy the live fireworks from my room window.
clear n NEAR(:
im definitely looking forward to more fireworks!
it just brightens up my day!(x
once again,wishing singapore a HAPPY 41st BIRTHDAY!
n of course,hoping tat every singaporean can continue to live in peace n harmony.
our hearts unite as one(:

got to start working on hmwrk tmr=/
amaths class test on friday...

2006-08-08T19:07:00.000-07:00

C L I C K!
ahaha.real tiring day but yet,i had LOTSA FUN((:
uh huhh.it was the 2.4run today.
yup.and not forgetting to mention tat it's national day eve today.
wat a fantastic and unique way to celebrate singapore's birthday huh?
others having celebrations, and wat do we have?
NAPFA.hah.
went to pasir ris early in the morning to meet up with pris,yanni and chenyun to take taxi to ecp.
and guess wat?the taxi fare went as high as $14.10[inclusive of $2 extra charge]
ohgodd.altho the total fare is shared among the four of us,
but hey!FOURTEEN DOLLARS AND TEN CENTS LEH!
wth.my pockets are gonna suffer.
well,so after taking attendence,we waited for our turn to run.
the start of the run was really tough with all the lactic acid built up in my muscles and therefore causing fatigue.LOL.
but as the run carried on,i got immuned to the pain.
and yup.jus wanna thank those ppl who gave me a pat on the back ya?
thanks for the support!
and also to binghao.thanks for your 'jiayou-ing' (:
the feeling after the run was unfortunately,terrible.
i was on the verge of fainting, but i didnt.
as in,i was like walking sideways cos my vision was blurred.
so yah.the headache went on for the next one hour as we set off to marina sq for our lunch with 3h at seoul garden.
the lunch was GREAT altho the service kinda sucked.
we were charged at the same price altho we were only allowed to eat for 2hrs.
i had my fill with all the chicken,overcooked hot-dogs,soup and ice cream!
lol.i was really bloated after tat.
so yah.as the lunch ended early, we decided to catch the movie,CLICK at 1.30pm.
mryeow came up with an idea of shuffling the tickets but fortunately,i still managed to sit beside priscillia and yunrong.
the show was absolutely FUNNY.
i was like lauging out loud at all the funny scenes.
but after all the laughter,the show turned out to be a touching one.
it had a meaning behind.yup.
family comes before everything
one of the nicest show tat i had ever watched.
yup(: ppl out there,do rmb to catch it yah?
its worth your 8bucks(x
when the whole outing ended,siewting,bowwen and i took a ride frm mryeow back.
had to go back to sch for cca.
uh huhs.but in the end,we did nothing.
uggh,wasted my time=/
i shld hav spent my time with the rest,shopping.
but,oh wells.i had a fun time in mryeow's car anyway.
lol.he drove quite fast =x
but nvm,i love such rides.thrilling..lol.

there's gonna be fireworks at the esplanade area later!
im SO looking forward.
gonna catch it frm my room's window later.
it's just gonna be a perfect sight x)
im unable to get tickets to watch tmr's ndp performance,which is a little disappointing.
zen me shuo, it's gonna be the very last yr in the national stadium, before it's being demolished.
but..im gonna catch it on tv anyway.
last of all,just wanna wish singapore a
HAPPY 41st BIRTHDAY!
and also to those who are celebrating their birthday tmr,
the NATION is celebrating for YOU xD

2006-08-04T22:10:00.000-07:00

WEIXIANG!
yixin loves weixiang!
awww.im HAPPY>.<
ohwells.im undergoing stress again or mayb it seems never ending.
i truly envy those physics ppl hu wun be having ANY tests nxt week.
the bio test nxt mon is jus spoiling the week.
WHY tests again?uggghhh.
and worse still,three long chpts.
i cant get wat the school is trying to do.
torture us?=/ nvm..
no use getting so upset over it.
it cant change the situation.
im jus hoping for lesser tests.tats all(:
ohyahh.the sch has been playing some national day songs thru the pa system for the past few days.
i tot it was kinda dumb at first.
but now,i kinda enjoy it.
as in it gives me a very warm kind of feeling.
im proud to be a singaporean(x
okay.tat sounds a little weird sumhow..lol.
the fireworks is commencing tmr ya?(as wat yingqian told me)
but my darn tuition is gonna spoil it again.
for the dunno HOW MANY TIMES.
#$%&*^#@!@#
ahh!shucks.
ohyahh.not forgetting to say wats gonna happen nxt wk.
will be completing pull-ups n standing broad jump nxt mon.
n yup.there's sure to be muscle aches all over.
n the BEST thing is, 2.4 run the next day.
WOWW.how to run with muscle ache all over?
im bound to fail lah.and mrchua still expects at least a c.
ohwell.i may not even reach a d?
hahhh=/
but i jus hope tat i will hav a great meal at seoul garden after tat.
kinda lookin forward to the class outing.
how nice if mryeow sponsors huh?
*dreaming*
i think he wld be broke by then?LOL.

2006-07-28T22:35:00.000-07:00

HEYHEYS
i love FRIDAYS!<3
cos its the only day when i declare myself free frm textbooks.
wahahah(:
altho tired,yet feeling extremely relaxed and happy.
semms tat posting has already turned out to be a weekly routine for me.
reflections abt wat has happened for the whole week.
oh wells.there had been ups n downs.
studying n studying for the tests.
it has been qte a relaxing week actually.
visited tm twice tis week.tats sorta rare.
i think my memory is getting frm bad to worse tis few days.
hah.cos i cant exactly rmb wat actually happened for the past few days le.
so hmm.wat happened to today..
nth special actually.just felt really tired n sleepy when lessons started.
first period-english.
it was boring as usual.i nearly doze off while watching the movie.
my mind was in a total blank.n i didnt noe wat was i watching.
i think sng nearly caught me.
i remembered she staring at me.
or mayb i was dreaming?hah.
second period-physics.
hmm.surprisingly,i slept throughout the whole lesson.
n yup.i was again,caught by mrchen.
my place is like so dangerous now.
second row.hah.nice one..
followed by double period of chinese.
had to do zuo wen AGAIN.
i haven finshed my gong han(:
lazy to write n spent my whole tym gossiping with pris,qin n mandice.
oh wells.followed by the freakin maths test.
damn difficult la.i din manage to finish it.
i suck at triangles=/
anyway,cca was fun today.
get to touch n meddle with the video camera.
and we went ard capturing the stjohns,ncc and gb.
so fun!(x
i like the teacher.he's nice n hmm.spastic?
lol.n he laugh at our dumbness.
im lost for words all of a sudden.
my hse is sorta noisy now.
with my ahma's nagging n the tv turned on in an extremely loud volume.
hah.mayb i shld be off to sleep now.
my eyes are closing-.-
buhbyes-

2006-07-22T19:33:00.000-07:00

one musnt be reminded of the past,
but shld be going on with life,
by staying strong and
having the faith/

ohwells.i shant be posting abt sum depressing stuffs tat has been happening to me for the past few days.
hah.trying very hard to stay happy.
keeping tat one and only SMILE(:
anyway.it was AHS 5oth founder's day ytd.
happy birthday anglican high!(x
the one and only sch which brought me fond memories.
i love the finale.the poppers!
hahah.nice performance.yupyup.
went to watch pirates of the caribbean2 with eunice,sihui,jieting and xiuhui after tat.
so fun(: the show was nice altho the ending was kinda weird.
still rmb jieting n i were like holding our bladders throughout the whole 2.5 hrs.
very xinku.but we din wanna miss the nice parts ya?
and furthermore,we cant find the exits.
LOL.and the credits was real long.
and wat we saw was jus the dog biting on a bone?
i was like wth la.sacrificing my bladder just for tat damn scene?
evryone went walau after tat.hah.expected..
went to take neos after tat(:
the machine was real cool.but we din noe how to use it.
but it turned out nice.
2beeohfive FOREVER^^
pirates of the carribbean rocks.
hahah.duno wat to type le.
anyway.i came across tis meaningful quote while decorating the notice board.
dun lower expectations to meet ur performance,
but raise you performance to meet ur expectations.
some thgs are easier said than done.
tats all i can say.

the reason why i chose not to reply was because i din wan my mood to be spoiled further,by you not replying.and you really did.
maybe it's fated?hah.idunno.
im not giving a damn anymore.

2006-07-16T05:06:00.000-07:00

all so complicated inside.
and unable to express it to anyone.
tearing dosent help.
studying doesnt help to hide my feelings.
being isloated in the room also doesnt.
im really lost at wat to do.
i dun wan to be reminded of tat scenerio.
i wish i could take away the hatred.
but it isnt as simple.
how am i supposed to treat you like before?
im LOST.
i jus wanna be numb.
i dun wanna THINK.
this is really freakin me out.

-if only the door was locked.

2006-07-14T22:03:00.000-07:00

many thing happened tis week tat made me real tired of sch life.
the mt olvl oral turned out to be a disaster for me.
i screwed it up.YUP.
i read the passage wrongly.n seriously,the words aren't difficult.
it's jus tat im too nervous.n it really did spoil evrythg.
ohyah.n the teacher's phone vibrated when i was talking.
im like wth?arent u supposed to switch off ya phone?
great manners huh.
but the topic sucks.i talked abt thgs tat were totally irrelevant.
hah.outta topic is sure to make me lose marks.
ohyah.we're down with so many freakin TESTS next week.
got lots to study?so yup.cant really update tat often le.
im gonna spend my tym doing thgs tat r of benifits to me((:
hmm.AND tat does not include spending tym on the com.
duhhh.lol.
mandice asked me a question tis morn in sch.
n i was like kinda stunned at the weird question.
she asked," eh sherli.y u suddenly so hardworking?keep on studying..like become shen jing bing already"
at first i tot it was meant to be a joke or sumthg.
but thinking it thru,i realised tat im indeed turning a lil crazy.
im aware of tat.but tis studying mood came rite after the mye.
it jus came all of a sudden.
okay mandice.u really made me realise tat im turning crazy grdually hur?
lols.but i jus hope tat tis feeling is not gonna make me break dwn sum day=/
hah.okayy.im off to study for physics now.
MUGGIN hard((:
BYE(x

-faithwithin YOU

2006-07-07T23:02:00.000-07:00

ive lost interest in blogging recently :(
too many hmwrk n too little time.
hah.so many many tests going on.
im sick of school.i hate secthree!
so tiring to look at books.
but im happy to say tat im finally done with my english presntation((:
english is finally a relaxed period for me.
listening to ppl presenting may be a little boring.
but..i found out tat there are really talents in our class hur.
example* LUHUAN!
i really enjoyed her speech very much.
entertaining n interesting.
others were all not bad also ya?
3h did well(x
hmmms.altho i din really like the cs copying n paste frm the internet.
hehh.im bad=X
but tis presentation activity made me real interested in reading now.
try reading catherine lim's book.yup.
tats my aim for now.
cos i hav difficulty understanding chim bks hur.
like pride n prejudice=/
took me 5mins to actually understand one paragraph.
im lousy.unlike FOOSIEWTING>.<
she actually put a dictionary beside her while reading.
((: u pro.

anyway.today was a terrible day.
i was suffering frm freakin gastric since first recess.
and yup.great thanks to siewting!
cos she bought me HL milk without the straw-.-
then we had to walked all the way the canteen again jus to get a STRAW.
ohh mann.i jus realised dat i din returned her te 80cents=x
chinese test was rather alrite bah(:
cos we had a total of 2hrs to write one du hou gan.
hehhh.sufficient time to fa hui my inspiration.
but i wrote crap.lols.
school was supposed to end at 12 today.
as teachers hav to go for some exhibition stuffs.
BUT.we had to go to the chem lab for pratical AND chem test.
imagine ppl walking out of classrooms with their bags.
and we walking to the chem lab with our pencil cases n calculator.
WONDERFUL.mrslam **** lorh=x
chem test was alrite also.
there was sum copying here and there in the class i think.
frm all the discussions n sounds ive heard.
but evrythg ended finally at 1.40
finished maths n yup.
i found out tat i really sucked at congruency n similarity.
FREAK.hah.shall stop here.
buhbyes(:

2006-06-30T23:29:00.000-07:00

my eyes r freakin red now.
due to insufficient sleep.ugggghh.
i regretted sleeping at 1am last nite.
n waking up 5.5o in the morning.
my eyes bearly can open.lols.
sports day dis yr was real boring.
so many people pon.especially the ap sectwos.
haiix.can u imagine how embarrassed i was when we did the cheer?
i was pratically looking at the floor throughout.
with 25 pathetic ppl,how are supposed to cheer?
all we got was the sacarstic remarks frm the mc.
"15% goes to ORIGINALITY" -.-
n yup.hearing other ccas laughing at us.
i know we're pathetic.hah.
actually i dun see the purpose of sports day=/
wads the meaning of running on the damn track?
lols.so funny(:
im tired now.veryvery tired.
n the 'four day holidays' are filled up again,with HOMEWORK.
im sick lorh.
the stupid english presentation.
maths hmwrk.chem test.geog wkbk.
n stil got others tat i cant rmb.
WONDERFUL.i love the teachers man!-.-
first week of school was real tiring can.
i dunno why.i fell asleep during maths.hah.shocking huh.
evryone's jus so hmm.tired?
hahh.im slowly switching to the 'studying' mood.
it takes time to adpat,i think.
chem test(:
AVOGARDO CONSTANT.
1mol=6 x 10^23
concentration=g/dm3 or mol/dm3
lalala.i forgt.need some revison =x

2006-06-26T21:40:00.000-07:00

first day of sch was terrible,
when it all started with the stupid chinese common test.
structured qs abt the dingzhuangmeng n they all add up to a total of 30 marks i think.
i was like so stunned when i saw those qs.
how am i supposed to dig out info frm my dead brain?
argghh.it sucks.i jus hope dat those crap i wrote will prevent me frm failing.
and tat maths project.
really understood the true meaning of grp work.
how impt it is for us to cooperate together in order to produce a good piece of work.
tis may sound like a reflection or somewhat.
but it's true.i too,realised tat there are definitely sum ppl hu choose to be irresponsible n do nth.
n the thg is,he/she doesnt feel guilty.
hah.humans r selfish sumtimes n dey can actually turn out to be qte mean.
REALITY.tats the word.
im feeling real down now.
there's amaths hmwk not done.
n i left my damn book in the damn locker.
so wat i can actually do now,is to do NOTHING.
knowing tat i have so much left undone..
hah.im screwing up evry single bit of my life rite now.
the moment i stop working,i'll start tinking.
tinking abt negative stuffs tat really makes me wanna start tearing.
promises ppl hav once made,were broken sumhw.
the trust tat i once had in ppl,all lost in a sudden.
not knowing hw to tresure the ones beside you n doing thgs tat r really really wrong.
the basic trust we shld hav among ourselves.where hav they all gone to?
i hate accepting reality.i hate accepting all tis.
i dun see the reason why one has to hurt ppl around him/her.
i DUN WANT TO KNOW.
wash my mind.i wanna get rid of all these negative thgs tat are going on in my mind.
they are really too much for me to bear.
sumtimes i just wish tat i cld be alone.
stop thinking..stop working.stop EVERYTHING.

2006-06-22T20:10:00.000-07:00

4 more days to the reopening of school.
n i HAVE NOT completed my holiday hmwk.
hahah.who has actually completed hur?
i remembered last yr,peishan used to complete them all.
as in ALL u know?she's one hardworking student.
lols.so,one month has jus flown by.
n i think.ive kinda wasted my time slacking.
those promises ive made before the holidays r hmm.so called,broken?
ive promised to actually use tis one month to buck up on my english.
but sad to say,nothing is done.
hah.im useless=/
im still under the torture of pride n prejudice.
i cant understand wad the whole damn bk is talking abt can.
the words are like so chim.
i have to read one whole paragraph for a total of 3-4 times in order to get wad the author meant.
hah.ive gt low english standard.
real low.hah.useless..
im feeling demoralised at tis very moment.
dun feel like carryin on with my hmwrk anymore.
i jus dun understand WHY the school loves giving hmwrk.
they do enjoy evry single bit of it hur.
anyway.im so not looking forward to the reopening of sch.
i dun look forward to having a chinese test on the FIRST day of sch.
can i turn back time?
let the june holidays come back again.
i need them BADLY((:

2006-06-20T08:40:00.000-07:00

http://www.nausicaa.net/miyazaki/grave/synopsis/page01.html
zai jian ying huo chong webbie(:

2006-06-16T09:06:00.000-07:00

i LOVE eunice!<3
wahahaha>.<

2006-06-16T01:05:00.000-07:00

hey ppl.our grp has designed the survey for the emaths project.
yup.here's the link.
http://www.surveymonkey.com/s.asp?u=974252256316
please help us ya?we need at least 50 ppl.
actually i tink tis is so not related to maths.
we r even made to write a proposal in PROPER format to the school.
it's fake la.duhh.
it sounds as if doc.boon is gonna listen to our suggestions.
n worse still,y mus we do a proposal?!
no link.n tis is definitely not english ok.
haix.i dun understand wat the sch is thinking.
but anyway.jus help complete the survey ya?
THANKS(:

talking abt today.
hah.had some sort of fun during cca.
reported early in the morning outside 2j classroom.
and we had dis lesson taught my our alumni members.
they dismantled the cpu n described the diff parts in it.
it was qte boring.
but still, i did made an effort to listen.
yups.the mother board was real big.
lols.looked like a model map or sumthg.
anyway.the lesson only lasted for an hr plus,i think.
ohya.i forgt abt the elections.
rather shi bai.cos only 6 pathetic secthrees came today.
n yup.during the lessons,our seniors counted the votes.
n so.the results were out.it was sort of a handover.
and yah.kewei's the pres!(x
n kehui's the vice-pres.
yingqian's the secretary.
steph n i are the treasurers.
n eunice n xinmin are the welfare i/c.
those r the few pathetic posts.
i dun really like being a treasurer thou.
can see the money but cant touch :(
sumore u hav to chase ppl for money.
hah.not nice hur.

after tat secthrees had a meeting.
we hav to make up cheers for the sports day.
i hate it when we hav to cheer during sports day =X
but haiz.the seniors forced us to do tis.
ohyah.we were scammed for lunch.
we ordered pizza n yah.
we tot it was going to a big one.
BUT it turned out to be two small ones.
buy one get one free sumore.
and it costs a total of $19.90!
arrggghhh.scam our money :(

i dun feel like typing anymore.hah.
buhbye(:

2006-06-11T10:03:00.000-07:00

it's getting quite late now.12.59am.
but i think i shall jus post sumthg up here before i get some sleep.
yups.hmmm.
i shall try to type this post in proper english.
in this way,not only can i improve my english standard,
at the same time, i can try not to piss ppl off
with my 'perfect' singlish.hahah.
okay.im getting out of hand.
back to reality.
oh ya.im so GLAD to say tat,
im FREE from tuitions for a whole of two weeks.
two weeks which equals to 14 days.
which equals to..hmm.
let me calculate.
a total of 336 hours.
yup.dat was not done mentally.
my hp calculator did it.
haha((:
im getting quite out of point again.
i've sort of planned wat im going to do for the next two weeks.
YUP.im gonna read finish 3 storybks.
one- tat damn ding zhuang meng.
siewting claimed tat it was nice.
oh well.i shld trust her taste ya?
im gonna FORCE myself to open to the first page n start reading.
two- another chinese bk
again,forced by the sch.
i hate it when we're forced to do things.
esp reading bks of THEIR choices.not ours.
and i think we're having a common test on it.
woowww.im so looking forward=/
three- an english bk.
hmm.sad to say.
i have not borrowed(:
supposed to go to the sch library n find.
but.i cant find the time.
or rather.im too lazy.
oh ya.we're supposed to do a presentation on the bk ya?
i cant imagine myself standing in front of the class n go speechless=X

oh wells.still gt more okays.
gotta learn yan yu.
twenty of them.n they're way TOO chim.
still gt 3 more jian bao/zhou ji.
uh huh.i tink i wld be dead by then.
who knows?mayb i will end up going back to sch n start copying frm others.
hah.tat will most likely happen(:
but.but.but.
nothing is impossible if u choose to believe.
yups.so im BELIEVE tat im gonna be a
hardworking gurl for the remaining 2wks.
cmon.MUG hard ppl.
there's always time to play after the olvls hur?=/
it's like so far.but yet so near.
time flies! rmb tat.
gansherli is gonna work hard.
LOL.
temasek jc -my dream-
real crappy post.
im off to sleep now.
BYE(x

2006-06-09T08:25:00.000-07:00

sixth sense tells me dat it's gonna end soon.
it's time i shld let go;

2006-06-07T02:49:00.000-07:00

was running a high fever jus now.
hah.terrible.
my head was like so heavy.
n my whole body ached.
so yups.my mum took the trouble to cum back frm work n brought me to see e doctor.
the doctor really sounded damn professional lor.
the way she talked.the way she explained.
it's real professional(:
so ya.i gt this virus fever.
n my body temp went as high as 38.9
hah.was kinda shocked.
so i was given sum panadols n body ache medicine.
oh ya.the panadols r damn big.
had difficulty swallowing two at a time.
went to sleep after dat.
n so here i am.
recovering.i HOPE.
after much perspiration for no reasons.
my head doesnt feel heavy anymore(:
ohya.im the 5th to gt sick at hm.
it all started wth my cousin =/
but i shall admit dat
i ate too much chocolates.lols.

no strength to type.
so i shall stop here-

2006-06-05T07:04:00.000-07:00

real hot weather recently.
n my darn aircon is like spoiled.
HAH.n ive been sleeping inthe living rm for the past few days.
n my body is like aching rite now.
sleepless nites ya?
lols.bad holidays.
haf not been touching my hmwk for the past few days.
im guilty =/
jus dun hav the energy.the urge to start workin.
furthermore.still gt 3weeks to go ya?
LOL.i know time flies like nobody's business.
but i shall nt giv a damn rite now.
im feeling real lazy.
ahhh.hu cares la.
i shall start workin tmr de tmr.
yup.i WILL n i must.
hahah=D
this holiday seems to be real down.
evryone's like so busy.
busy with camps.ccas n all other stuffs.
cant even find the time to hang out together with frens.
it's like so different frm the past.
n now.im always STUCK at home.
lying on the bed.
walking ard.n staring at the pile of hmwk.
this sucks totally can.
HAIX.cant even get to enjoy.
=(
n sad to say.im havin physics tuition soon.
but it was me hu made dis request.
so yup.contradictions hur.
i never liked tuitions.

i hate it when i start to care-

2006-06-02T03:36:00.000-07:00

make-up lessons are like finally OVER!(:
lols.now must really concentrate on the hols hmwk?
hmms.not jkin yeah?
anyway.can anyone tell me when we mus go back to sch n get the answers for the bio hmwk?
hah.im kinda confused with the dates rite now.
gt lotsa thgs to do.
lotsa bks to read.
haiishh.
sumtimes its better without holidays.
but hah.at least there's a lil tym left to relax n slack,
without those long sch hrs buggin me.
lol.i dun hate sch dat much la.
jus hate those bks facing me evryday.
=(
had a bad experience in whitesands' mac today.
we were sitting beside a nosey mother with two of her daughters quietly practising their 'wonderful' algebra.
i was kinda stunned.
cos yah.they wereso hardworkin lor.
not like me.
so pris,yanni n i were wondering which sch were they from.
den i dunno why we started tokin abt tkgs.
n pris said tat tkgs gt lotsa lesbians?
lols.i din realised anythg until pris said tat she found out tat the two girls were frm tkgs.
then the mother took out her phone n called sumone.
she started discriminating us for no reasons.
say"three anglican high girls...blah blah"
she even called us ji po..as in kaypo or nosey.
hah.i wasnt tat pissed in the first place.
cos i din know wad was going on until we left mac.
n pris told me evrythg.
wat the hell lor.
i dun understand why the mother gt so agitated in the first place la.
i really pity those two girls.
dots..i dun wanna elaborate further le.
i jus look dwn on such ppl.
complain all u want.
im not gonna care(:

2006-05-30T02:41:00.000-07:00

WONDERFUL experience i had today.
woke up at 7.30am in e morn.
so i gt changed n went dwnstairs n waited for my bus.
hmms.waited for a whole of 20mins la.
when the bus came,it was alr 8.40 le.
and we're supposed to hav bio make-up at 9am?
i was like damn nervous la.
was supposed to meet mandice in e first place.
but i was like too late.
so she went off first.
so when i gt off the mrt.
i chiong out n ran to sch.
then i found out dat i really very shi bai.
im gonna fail my 2.4 for sure.
hah.ran for a few mins den i was panting like crazy le.
n tat pris called me n say mrslee was in class le.
omg.dat really scared me.
so i ran n ran.
but when i reached e class.
mrslee wasnt dere.HAH.
pris.good one hur.
made me so lang bei.
i slap u arh.
loll.okays.im not childish alrite.
so bio lesson went out qte well.
except for the last part.
i became a lil restless n started toking to mandice.
so i din really listened.
hahah.im gonna do sum revison later.
(: im hardworking.
so after lessons,we went to tm.
eat at long john n gossiped alot.
errm.wrong word.
shld be TALK.
yeah.hahaha(:
then we went to hav a walk ard tm.
as usual.it was sian.
until i stepped to popular's cdrama.
i saw junyang's album! xD
loll.it was NICE.
he's like so shuai can.
im gonna save up money to buy his album soon.
hahah.went to library wth siewting after dat.
we jus cant seem to find those english bks tat the chers wan us to borrow la.
so ya.kinda giv up after a 1/2hr search.
chinese was as bad la.
all the bks were like so ulu.
but we still managed to find an acceptable bk.
so ya.went hm after dat.
so giddy so i slept in the bus.
nearly missed my stop.LOL.
chou shi.
hah.stop here le.
buhbyes-

2006-05-26T04:53:00.000-07:00

i jus discovered dat my previous post was damn lame.
so i decided to errm ya.
type another post(:
lols.
so today.we had assembly at the hall.
n drboon gave a real long devotion can?
i was like slping throughout.
den after dat had 2hrs of maths.
learnt functions.
i dun really like dat chpt lor.
cos i rmb dat i sucked at it when it was taught during tuition.
hah.den we started cleaning up our classrm after recess.
almost used up the whole bottle of thinner lor.
den all our tables turned out to be damn smooth.
all the vandalising are gone with jus a rub over the tables.
loll.the power of thinner!
hahah.after cleaning up,all the form chers came.
mryeow was waiting outside our class,
while mrchen asked us abt sumthgs.
i cant rmb wad issit abt le.
but ya.we were restless at dat tym.
then we kinda dao mrchen.
so mryeow was kinda pissed lorh.
den he came in n scolded us.
"Chaotic times will show your true character"
hmmms.i agree to dat too.
so yarh.felt qte guilty.
after dat we gt back our report bks.
yup.SEVEN chinese scholars occupied the top ten positions.
den weitian was best local.congrats!^^
hmms.followed by xinyi n amanda.
2c's 1st position.
2b's 1st position.
2d's 1st position.
woahh.evryone was stunned.
loll.dey do keep up their standard mann.
cont to jiayous ppl.
yup.hahah.
so.FINALLY.hols r here.
but dun have the gan jue.
as in holiday de feeling.
there's still make-up lessons on.
ccas n stuffs.
arrghhhs.is dis even a holiday?
haiissh.
but i wanna use dis holiday to really buck up on my eng le.
cos a b4 is definitely a no to my mum.
hahah.a no to me also la.
lolls.da jia.must jiayou worh.
anyway.look at dis!
but anyway, still must praise u all for being well-behaved at least for most of the time.. got teachers come and tell me ,"ur 3H so weird ! we walk past other classes they are all hay-wire.. but ur 3H, all sit down there and do their stuff and so quiet.." hahaaa... proud of u all ...
found dis in 3h's blog.
mryeow praised us!(:
hahah.3h rocks ya?
smiless(x

2006-05-25T03:31:00.000-07:00

wahahahahs(:
im posting at siewting's hse.
n she's poking me now lor
slap her!(x
im so not mean.
okayys.im pratically replying wad she says.
hmms.she lame diao le.
rite siewting?
YESH!
see.i knew it.
lols.okays.wo zhi dao wo hen LAME.
i dunno wad to say le.
siewting's hse de blogger is in chinese de lor.
so ERRM.leng-.-
hmmms.so ya.
today its FINALLY our turn to go to the tea hse.
aka cha guan.yup.hahha.
hmms.it was freakin small la.
hahah.but learnt lotsa thgs lor.
learn how to pao cha.as in make tea(x
bad translation.i know..lalala.
yup.so i smelled the tea.
then we poured to the cup n drink.
super nice.
den the cup very nice smell.
dunno y.
den when u rub the cup wth ur hands.
it jus SMELLS NICER.
whooo(x
omg.im high.
lols.
so ya.the dumpling was nice.
cha ye dan aka tea egg was NICER.
yah.but the dumpling was like so small la.
n i spilled the tea egg sauce on my skirt.
hahahh.so ya.i noe im clumpsy.
(:hmmms.dunno wad to say le
cos siewting say i very lame.
i dun liek her le.
POKE si ta.
(: im so good.
givin her free massage.
lols.okayys.stop here.
later ppl puke blood.
hahhah.buhbyess.

2006-05-20T00:14:00.000-07:00

yayness.
i finally found the url for the song canon in d.
whooshh.im so in love with dis song((:
altho it's only music,but it jus makes me feel so..
hmms.relaxed?lols.
weird description.but nvm.
i jus love canon!^^
dunno wad to say le.
got tuition later.
n im so not lookin forward to it.
i jus dun seem to understand the freakin binomial theorom[nt sure if it's the rite spelling]
but it's a disgusting topic.hah.

buhbyees=D

2006-05-18T21:44:00.000-07:00

jus went to 3h blog n went thru all the links dere.
hmms.main motive was jus to see hw was the bbq like.
but.it seems dat not many have really posted?
but weitian did posted in 3h blog.

haha today's bbq was fun!20 of us managed to get A1s for both emaths and amaths!and so now mr yeow's wallet got one big hole le!have to treat us to bbq! =Poh yar this is weitian! haha my second time blogging!today's bbq is really interesting!unusual to see baowen's face go ALL RED when we teased her..horrible to see that the Function room still got people haven siam yet when it was 6even got one girl studying there! shhh!funny to see how zhi sing borrowed the billard stick to retrieve the soccer ballirritating to see the security guard patrolling and keeping a close watch on us.amusing to see how chuan yun was nearly ponded by lu huan..stunned dio to see that shiya and zhi sing went the long long long way to 85 there de 7-11 just to buy ice!proud to be telling shu chen some of the nice nice food in Singapore! esp sotong and sambal kangkong!!again, funny to hear bing hao asking if he can have a second helping of mee fen when amanda was like helping herself?feelings of disbelief seeing that mr yeow was able to turn one round bout the narrow thing there.

hmms.
i felt kinda disappointed when i left so early ytd.
i bet i was the only hu cld not stay for the bbq.
bcos of my damn maths tuition.
haiix.
when i left.mryeow n the others were jus only starting the fire la.
so i missed my dinner n nearly rot during tuition.
my stomach was like grumbling like mad.
u guys must have had fun during the bbq rite?
with all the free food dat mryeow sponsored.
but i sadly dun get to enjoy any of them.
haiiiiiiix.really hope dat we can hav another class outing soon.
can we?(:

oh wells.
talking abt dis week.
it was really a tiring week when we get back all our results.
waiting for teachers to get into our class.
with stacks of exam papers in their hands.
whoa.dat was real scary.
followed by giving back papers according to reg.no..
evryone was like so nervous.
but at least it's all over for now.
i tink i did qte okay bah.
except for physics.
i was kinda shocked when i saw the no. 5 in front.
a C5.woww.
im gonna hav physics tuition.dats for sure.
hahs.going to pia nxt term le.
so yarh.besides getting back papers,
we had LESSONS.
so shocking hurrs?
we cont chpt6 for chem.
n started chpt 8 for bio.
i love drawing hearts.
oh yarhh.mrslee is finally back.
i jus so love her teaching man=D

holidays r nearing.
n we've already started receiving our hmwrk le.
haiix.chinese got lots to do.
maths got project.
i bet there's more to cum ya?
lols.im SO looking forward =/
okayys.shall stop here le.
jus wanna say to those ppl out dere.
pls dun be sad if u hav not done well.
there's ALWAYS a nxt tym to work hard for.
n you're definitely gonna do well the nxt tym.
keep the FAITH ppl.
stay strong n SMILE(:

2006-05-14T02:21:00.000-07:00

(: happy mothers' day!
lols.
i shall say sumthg.
i LOVE <3 my mummy!
okayys.so leng-_-

2006-05-11T03:16:00.000-07:00

HEYHEY.
im here to bring my blog back to life.
it has been dead for qte awhile ehh?
lols.midyrs ma.
have to study.
so now exams r over,it's finally time to relax n take a break.
yupyup.hahax.
jus wanna take dis opportunity to say thankyou
to all those ppl out dere hu encouraged me during the exam period.
yeps.those small lil sms-es really do matter.
n yup.great thanks to siewting hu helped me with physics.
i love ya!(x
but hmms.i think i wun do well.
esp for eng?
jus gt dis damn feeling dat i'll fail badly.
really realised dat time management is vry impt during dis midyrs lorh.
cos it's our first time taking two papers a day.
haiishh.bad experience.
i still rmb hw i pia for my chem n bio.
lols.those were the days mann.
n im super HAPPY to say dat..
THEY'RE all OVER!whoooshh(x
im hyper.

hah.anyways.
mothers day is cumin real soon.
dis sunday.
n my mum kips hinting me.
asking..ehh wad u buy for me arh?
but i jus said dat im broke.no money.
hahha.but it's a fact la.
i really broke.
so yarh.during the exam week,i kinda save up lotsa money.
see mummy.im so filial((:
im going to buy ya present tmr.hah.
no worries mann.
but i currently cant think of anythg to buy.
im outta brain juice le.
so yarh.tmr going out with "piggy club".
buyin mothers day presents together.
more brains can cum out wth better ideas ehhs?
lols.but my money is jus gonna fly away again.
haiishh.poor wallet.
forever empty.
hah^^

so sianded.
sumtimes i really do feel bored without studying.
but cmon.im not dat siao la.
jus feelin extremely bored only.
cos really gt nth to do lorh.
den i dun feel like reading any storybks also.
jus now i heard dat amanda wanted to go to e library to borrow bks!
im like wad the..
hardworking until like dat..
lols.im a real slacker(:
hahh.
okiess.shall end here.
nxt time.
mayb i shall post abt my pathetic mye results?
hah.i dunno =x

2006-04-21T21:39:00.000-07:00

so the three spas ended dis week.
n all were sucky.
physics was the worst of all.
i only drew one graph when we're supposed to draw two.
or rather i did e whole experiment wrongly.
with the lil amt of time left,i decided to jus crap my way thru.
haiix.it turned out to be worse than i expected.
i hate spa!urggghhhss.

midyrs r coming.
n there's still a ss common test on monday.
wad the..
i cant stand it la.
i really cant figure out wad the sch is thinking.
giving us common test when exams r on dat wk?
pushing both language papers to such an early date.
like errm.it's next FRIDAY?
hellloooo?!do we even hav the freakin time to really start studying
when there's even common test nxt wk?
im jus gonna flunck midyrs.
as in it's not dat i wanna look at the negative side.
but it's true la.so little time n so much to study!
n worst.chem n bio r on the same day.
my brains r jus gonna go crazy dat day.
i can imagine myself staring at the paper n stone.
haiiiix.
sometimes cum to thjink of it,
complaining wun solve anything.
but jus only to fa xie myself.
i dunno wad to say le.
i jus HATE dis yr.
i know i've said this many times.
but life must go on.
soon it will be olvls.
n soon i will be outta this sch.
n MAYBE by that time, then i will truly realise hw fortunate i am now.
well.dats a maybe.
i dunno wads gonna happen anyway.
haiiixx.life shucks for the moment.
im jus waiting for this period to be over.
anyway.to all of yah out there.
jiayous alrite?(:

2006-04-09T20:31:00.000-07:00

ive decided to cum n post sumthg since im online now.
yups.
well.i think ytd was the worst day evr.
hah.i broke dwn due to sum unknown reasons.
i knew dat dis day was gonna happen.
it's jus a matter of time.
it happened during tuition tym bah.
when i was trying my very best to draw a tangent on my graph,
n always getting the answers wrong.
dis is not the first time.but yah
ytd i jus screwed up evrythg.
getting damn stressed up.
n after tuition,while waiting for sumone to fetch me hm,
i started to tink abt lotsa thgs.
all the stress that ive been going thru dis yr.
why life has becum so different compared to sectwo?
ppl changing,my life's changing,evrythg's changing.
haiiish.
from dta vry moment i started stoning at evrythg i see.
lols.i noe it sounds funny.
but it's true ya?(:
i guess my cousins all noticed dat i was weird la.
den dey started asking wad happened.
n yarh.i said nth lorh.
mayb im jus tired bah.
HAH.i suddenly dun feel like carrying on le.
ohwells.mayb i shld jus put away the past yah?
so im gonna stop here.yeps.
i noe dis is crapy lah.
sorry(:

2006-04-07T20:29:00.000-07:00

after one wk of not touching my com.
i shall giv myself a break today.
yups.free frm BOOKS.
i dun wanna look at them.
cos i know that the moment i look into them,
i'll PUKE.hahah..
feeling terribly sian dis week.
sick of all the class tests n common tests.
evryday.there seem to be sumone not feeling happy.
hah.all the stress we have to go thru.
i bet i'll break dwn sum day la.
i jus hate dis yr.
evrythg jus seemed to be changing.
n i truly hate dis feeling.
secthree life is real tough.
but all of us MUST hang on there ya?
we MUST.
jiayou jiayou((:

hmmms.
talking abt today.
we had dis emaths test on trigo.
n yup.sad to say it was difficult.
but errm.which paper dat mryeow set was easy?
HAH(:
i gt stuck on the very first qs n stared at it for like damn long la.
so yar.mryeow walked past n stared at my paper.
den he gave me dat "huh?u sure?" look.
n im like fine.im wrong again.
dis is nt the first tym he stared at my paper.
n evrytym he stares,the ans will sure be wrong.
i stressed dao can.haiiishh
today's cca was real slack.
eunice n i did nth but blogsurfing.
hahah.den i tink the instructors sumhw gave up on us le.
cos we're always the one lagging behind?
lols.im a flash retard):
i tink eunice n i went a lil crazy today.
tearing at one min n laughing at another min.
very funny lorh.
hahahhs.but isnt that wad true frens r for?
AWWWW.
i noe eunice's hair is gonna stand.
but HAH.like i care hurh.
lols.shall stop here le.
post again sum other time=)

2006-03-31T03:29:00.000-08:00

the feeling's back here again.
the stress, the fear in me.
i seriously gotta say dat secthree life is real tough.
continuos tests and many other thgs.
the results that nvr seemed to be satisfying..
sumtimes, i really do hate myself when i lose to the ppl ard me.
being competitive sumtimes isnt a gud thg.
this feeling really sucks.dats all i can say.
yups.
im sick.so sick of studying.
sick of looking into txtbks.
sick of thinking abt the results.
n SICK of tinking abt the upcoming mye.
time really flies.
it's like only four more weeks.
JUST four more weeks to mid yr.
i cant imagine wad it wld be like when exam comes.
hw wld the paper be like?
haix.i really cant imagine..
DOTS.
i dunno y im here typing all these crap la.
but bear with me.
im jus getting ap-ed nowadays.
haisshh=/

2006-03-24T04:47:00.000-08:00

bensay! (x

lalalas.
im so in love wth secthree bonding camp.
C-A-M-P-F-I-R-E
campfire!whoo!
palawan beach rocks!(:
i jus lurve the banana song.
hahahhs.
okayys.
but the camp is like over le?
must study..
BISHH.
term one results were alrite bahs.
mryeow or rather woey?
lolls.
he really gave me a shock when i saw 3h results at the concourse.
my avg was lik 66.8?
n later found out dat he din add amaths.
haiis.made me real sad for one day.
waste my muscles for being sad.
DOTS.
nxt wk gt bio n amaths test.
n sad to say..
i forgt all the quadratic graph formulas!!
arrrggghhhs.
wo si le-
n bio..
i tink im dead for it le ba..
haiix=(

2006-03-18T18:49:00.000-08:00

seriously ive really lost the interest in blogging
n i dunno y im still cuming here.
hahah.fu yan myself ba.
holidays r jus over like dat le.
it's like damn fast or i can say,short?
haiix.n i haven completed my hol hmwk.
im such a slcker during dis hol.
oh wells.camp took up one day of our hols.
which definitely isnt fair.
y not all sec threes pon sch on mon then?
haha(:
the rest of the days hav been spent playing the com.
eating n eating n watching tv.
hahah.
so yarh.dats hw hmwrk accumulate.
n here i am worrying wad will mssng do to me
if she finds out dat ive nt done the bkreview?
arrgghhhs.she's gonna giv me a real bad scolding.
but its like HELLO?!
dis is not even a holiday larh.
holidays r for students to rest or mayb do a lil of revision.
we shld be free frm hmwrk can?
hu's dat person hu set this tradition dat hol hmwrk shld be given?
BISHHH.
ohwells.i shld nt put the blame on anyone.
it's all my fault actually.
i was a slacker all along.
n yup.im left wth so much to do!

#. bk review [i jus started reading..-.-]
#. ss wksht [due nxt fri =D]
#. fei ying [due end of dis month isnt it? ((x]
#. practise for maths common test TMR [im halfway thru (:]
#. study for chem class test on weds [im halfway thru too]

SOOOO MANY.
hurrhurr.
shucks =x

2006-03-17T20:33:00.000-08:00

HEYS.
my old blog is back.
which is a gud gud thg
but oso a bad bad thg
cos i hav to go round telling ppl saying
DUN NEED TO RELINK ME LE!
yupyup.
hahhas
(:

2006-03-17T08:38:00.000-08:00

sorry ppl.
my previous blog is corrupted.
so yarh
i hafta change address.
twinkling-starx.blogspot.com is gonna be a history.
n dis is so shitty.
GRR.
stupid blogspot la.
go ard killing ppl's blog.
n so sweh im one of them.
wadever!
haiis.jiu end here le.
im falling asleep any min(x
byees.

2006-03-15T17:28:00.000-08:00

ayyyeeeyeah saburehhh
kochipehpeh kochipehh
kochipehpeh saburehhh
BREATHE IT IN..
BREATHE ALL OUT!
yi er san si
YI ER SAN SI!
xi de guo dong!
xi de guo dong xi de dong!
xi de guo dong xi MY TOE.
YOU XI MY TOE((:

wahahhahs
im still in camp mood yah?
lolls
feeling v sian now.
so decided to update my blog.
(:
sad to say dat there's still alot of holiday hmwk to be done.
and the time left is jus so little.
surely can finish de.
haiix.
dis is definitely not a holiday.
i only finished my maths.
did eng compre except for summary.
AND no more le.
dotss.
i haven borrowed a book for eng bk review.
n i haven thot of a book yet.
cos i dun have the book list!
*give me one adidas clap*
DIAOO
hahhs.
shall stop here le
buhbyess=D

2006-03-12T19:41:00.000-08:00

finally solved the cookie prob.
but here i am.dunno wad to say.
was talking to bingkia jus nw.n yups.
i really tink dtat i changed.
as in changed myself to fit into other's character.
doing thgs dat i cant believe dat im actually doing it.
im jus not me.
jus starting to really hate myself.
i dunno wad has gt into me.
i wanna get back to the real me.
the real real me.
im jus so confused with my feelings.
contradictions n watever.
i dun wanna care anymore.
jus hope dat after the hols.
i'll be the old me.
the old sherli..dots.

okays.in order nt to make dis post short.
i shall talk abt the secthree bonding camp.
3h really made it thru n made dis camp memorable.
i only started to treasure the days at the camp on the last day.
the day when we went to palawan beach n played captain's ball.
i really can sense the bond within 3h when we cheered for the ppl playing.
cheered till we lose our voices.
but it was all worth it.
we had our strategy.n we earned lotsa pts.
altho we din made it for the best grp.
but i believed dat we really tried(:
n talking bout the instructors.
benjamin say n jeremiah.
i realised that they really rock.
jus on the last day.
it was kinda late.
but at least i realised it.
benjamin was kinda sianded on the first day as he lost his voice.
but on the third day he was back.
so enthu.so high.
i was kinda shocked.
jeremiah was gud all along.
so yeahh.
overall.i wanna say a big big thankyou to the insrtuctors.

three cheers n three cheers for instructors!
hiphip HOORAY
hiphip HOORAY
hiphip HOORAY

talking bout mr yeow.
he's really gud.he cared for us.
this camp really made 3h love mryeow more.
the gulp he bought for us.
i was touched.
bringing us to 7-eleven after the campfire.
yups. i really treasured all dat ya?
thanks mryeow(:

yups.dtats all le.
i dunno hw to elaborate further.

i jus hate ME-

2006-03-06T03:08:00.000-08:00

sorry for nt posting since like forever?
due to some stupid cookies prob dat jus cant be solved.
but urrms.so many many thgs happened during the past few days.
n yups,i really wanna take dis chance to fa xie here.
DOTS.
anyway.03.03.06 seemed to be the worst day ever.
though it sumhw supposed to be a happy day,
like wad most ppl said.
but unexpected thgs [or rather expected] thgs happened dat jus made me feel the opposite.
in another words.DISAPPOINTED.yup.dtas the word.
ms kartini really gave me a big big present or rather shock?
i failed my geog.yups.
actually i kinda predicted that will happen.
with such poor map skills n a lack of understanding,
how will i ever pass dat geog paper?
goshh.i can really be a fortune teller.
i predict the future pretty well hurr.
so yarh.we had dis retest due to the fact that 13 ppl failed.
and i tot that there mite be a chance dat my marks will improve from a d7 to a b3.
but my results proved me wrong.
wad i got was jus a passing mark.a c6.
wadevrr.im sososo disappointed with myself.
the retest was actually almost the same paper.
n im like so stupid to get such low marks.
n worst of all.LAST in class.
fine.im jus gonna accept the fact n gt over dis.
but it's really difficult la.
can we really forget thgs by jus saying that we wan to?

n yup.to the person out dere.
i noe you're not gonna see dis.
but i jus wanna say dat my feelings r like dead now.
u brought me into 3h
made use of me.
made me feel outcasted.
saying thgs that really hurt one's feeling
n yupp.i shall not shed a single tear anymore.
one who's worth it wun make u tear.
but once again.all those thgs dat i said dun mean to discriminate you on purpose.
u once gave me a memorable frenship which i used to treasure.
yups.jus wanna say a thankyou for dat.

shi jian neng gou wang ji yi qie
sheng zhi shi yi xie ni bu xiang wang ji de shi qing.

2006-02-17T00:51:00.000-08:00

heyheys.
tym to post again hurrhs.
n yups.eunice is jus here beside me.
lalalas(:
YOYO!
whaahahs.dtats eunice.
my friggin laogong.
bleehhhs.
so friggin unluckie today.
burnt my hair today in the chem lab
by the friggin
BUNSEN BURNER!):
whatverrrrr/.

2006-02-15T03:04:00.000-08:00

haven been updating for weeks.
hahahs.jus too lazy.
hmmms.
im sumhw qte happy today for some reasons(:
but kinda unlucky too.
cos my sim card was rejected.
cos i played with the codes thgy.
n yup.sim card kena rejected.
urrrggghhs.
im changing my hp no for e time being
until i get back a new sim card.
yupyup.so yarhs.
anyone hu sees this jus take note bahs.
new no. 96992910
jus using for e time being only.
(:smilelss.
anyway.ytd was vday.
yups.received lotsa sweets n chocos!
wahahhas.first tym evr mann.
lols.sound so kuku.
dey r all stored up in my hse now.
yupps.jus cant bear to eat them=D
hahhas.
talking bout today.
it's total defence day.
n yup.canteen was closed.
n we had no recesses but were given biscuits n a bottle of water.
we were also given sum kind of army food.
yupps.mutton noodles?
it doesnt really look nice.but sumhw tasted qte okay.
food rationing excercise turned out qte fun ya?
lols.
nth to talk le.
having maths test dis fri n geog test nxt mon.
SO COOL hurhs?
(x buhbye!

2006-02-03T06:06:00.000-08:00

so yarh.cny holidays r like over.
n it's tym to start pia-ing le.
cos dere will be no more hols until march?
omg.im gonna die.
AND AND AND
i have FOUR tests next week can?
wad the hell.
o1. social studies
o2. maths
o3. english
o4. biology
urrrgggghhhhs.
i so hate dis kind of stuupeed sch life.
tests tests n more tests.
n i really dun understand y we r made to learn the chpt prabability on ourselves.
it's like sec4 emaths.wtv lorh.
n yup.stupid eng hmwk dtats gonna fill up my wkend.
studying n doing notes for social studies chpt 2
which consists of 9 sub chpts.
NINE only.
learning n TRYING to figure out probabilty
which im extremely blur abt.
haiiiiss.im stressed!
wtv.
i shall not tok abt tests anymore.
they r jus gonna make my mood worse.

anws.
todays cca was fun.
n yup.dis is my first tym i find my cca fun.
=x
wells.sec ones came in today.
n they r SOOO cute n short.
hahahas.
so we played whacko as usual.
n then followed by amazing race ard the sch.
formed into a grp which includes me,eunice,steph,yingqian,michelle,claire n 2sec1s.
there were nine stations altogether.
n we r made to play sum stupid games.
but it was fun trying to guess out all e clues.
n sum of e clues din really make sense actually.
so yarh.we like ran n walked ard the sch for abt 2hrs?
LOL.so fun.
in the end we were the third to finish the race.
yup.urrm.not bad ehhs?(:
hmms.
so the first grp received sum kinda prize which was wrapped.
den we took club fotos outside the classrm.
qte aa.but aiyah.
alot of ppl nt scared malu ma.hahahhs.
so cca end of at ard 6?
it's the lastest dismissal tym evr.
but i liked cca today.
whoooo^^
so yup.after cca jiu walked hm wth eunice.
den talk alot of cork on e way.
wahahahs.
jiu shi zhe yang.
dun feel like typin le=D

im jus hoping for 'dis' day to cum-

2006-01-27T05:49:00.000-08:00

happy lunar new yr evrybody!
hav a great renuion dinner
n YUP.collect lotsa hongbaos
n not forgetting to eat e delicious goodies!
whhhoooossshhh^^
yummie yum yum.
zhu da jia
xin nian kuai le
xue ye jing bu
sheng ti jian kang
n most imptly.
sheng huo yu kuai!=D

.takecare(:

- when will u ever turn back?

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